A girl welcomes her Love... This girl has been a very bad girl, and her regrettable mistakes nearly cost her everything. Fortunately, the fates and her Goddess @Kali have smiled on Lily, and her Love has decided to keep this girl and come back home to her where She belongs. She has chosen a beautiful new honorific that warms Lily's heart every time she speaks or writes it. "Yes, my Love..." rolls easily off the tongue and makes this happy girl smile. 😍 she will do everything she can to take care of her Love, show Her the devotion and adoration She deserves, and make Her feel welcomed and wanted. 💜💙 Lily is happily working in her collar and chains today ⛓️💞🔗, feeling their comfortable weight and snugness. In the past this girl would have been otherwise naked, but she now sports a beautiful black and silver chastity belt along with her chains. The belt is locked tightly around her waist and over her sex, and her Love holds the only keys, so Lily can do nothing more than paw 🐾 helplessly at herself without permission and release from her Love. This girl has also been decorated by her Love. Her belt is marked with a shiny sticker with the Superman S on it, which reminds her of old shameful things in new positive ways. 🦸‍♀️ her Love also painted a beautiful butterfly 🦋 on Lily's back last night with the message "Emerge Victorious," and this girl intends to do just that! Lily loves to be decorated by her Owner, and she has been proudly prancing around the house and twirling around to show off her pretty artwork. Lily loves the feelings of ownership and submission these things bring. Her Love has given her a second chance and come home to her. This girl is thankful for this change of life in ways even she did not anticipate 🙏, and she will always remember her place at her Love's feet 🦶🧎‍♀️and adjust her behaviors so that she can properly serve and care for her beautiful Love with no distractions. It is this girl's purpose and greatest desire to please her Lovely Kali, and she will always show her proper devotion and respect. It is time for Lily to check on her Love to make sure Her needs and desires are met. This girl is elated beyond words, and she looks forward to a long and happy life pleasing and serving the most wonderful Woman she has ever known. 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 #BDSM #BDSMstr #Bondage #Discipline #Kink #Kinky #Kinkstr #Fetish #Submission #Submissive #SubGirl #Substr #FLR #SlaveGirl #Shackles #Shackled #Chains #Chained #Chastity #ChastityBelt #Collar #Collared #PraiseKink #PetGirl #PetPlay #NSFW

A girl gets the blues... This morning Lily helped her beautiful Goddess to the bathroom, then excused herself to go relieve herself as well, but Goddess @Kali called her back and said "No!" Lily stood and waited for a while, confused, until Goddess asked if she needed to go outside and sent her to fetch her leash. LilyPup yipped happily and eagerly complied, being led outside to do her business. she was taken to the bushes near the deck, sniffed around to find an appropriate spot, and got the relief she needed. LilyPup barked and pranced happily, looking forward to a day in the yard fetching things for her Owner as She mowed the lawn. Unfortunately, Mother Nature is a jerk, and it started raining within minutes of setting up for that task, so LilyPup is anxiously looking forward to her next opportunity to play outside. In leiu of that, Lily was taken back inside and allowed the privilege of cleaning and caring for her Goddess' sore feet. This girl loves to worship at the altar of Goddess Kali's soles and is happy to suck and taste Her toes, so she took to the task eagerly. After some time of enjoyable foot care and play, Goddess Kali nodded off for a nap and Lily made lunch of General Tso's chicken with steamed veggies. Lily served lunch, then she was put to use cleaning and sweeping and fetching to make the house presentable for visitors while Goddess Kali performed tasks that she is uniquely skilled at. This girl loves to be useful to her goddess like this, taking on menial work to free her Goddess to do Her important things. It reminds Lily of her place, and she simply loves to be helpful. After the visitors left, Lily was taken to the bathroom and sat down to be made pretty. This girl's hair was recently dyed a lovely purple and pink blend, and she looked fantastic! Unfortunately, the purple quickly faded into pink, and the original pink mostly faded out, so Goddess Kali allowed Lily to pick a new color to add to her hair and we agreed upon a beautiful dark blue. Lily sat pretty as the dye was being applied, then helped around the house while it set, and rinsed it out after an hour. Lily is now a pretty blend of blue and pink, and she has already drawn one compliment from a stranger getting coffee this afternoon. This girl is happy to be made pretty and loves being taken out to show off, because her own beauty reflects well on her Goddess and Lily is so proud to belong to Her. #BDSM #BDSMstr #Bondage #Discipline #SlaveGirl #PetGirl #PetPlay #Submission #Submissive #SubGirl #Substr #FLR #PraiseKink #Kink #Kinky #Kinkstr #Feet #Fetish #FootFetish #NSFW

A girl is a bit tied up... Tonight Goddess @Kali put Lily in a tie that was punishing and challenging for her, and definitely painful, but the endurance of it for her Goddess is more than reward enough. 🥰 Lily had a very tight crotch rope pulled snugly through her ass cheeks 🍑, up her back, and tied tightly around her neck with tension. The rope ➰ is a rough and scratchy sisal that Lily normally loves the feel of, but it proved quite difficult through this ordeal. This girl spent over an hour bound like this. At first Goddess played with her, pulling her around and up onto her toes by the rope running up her back and loose ends left in strategic places. This squeezed Lily painfully but pleasingly in several sensitive places, and she happily moaned and squirmed and pranced. She also had Lily try to sit down, which proved possible by taking her weight on the chair arms and slowly lowering herself, but much more painful than standing. After a while, Goddess Kali had Lily fetch the nail polish remover and slowly drifted off for a nap while Lily cleaned Her nails. 💅 When her task was complete, Lily stood and waited for her Goddess. This put her into a blissful type of subspace despite her discomfort. This girl feels very safe here, and Goddess Kali always emphasizes her well-being over the scene or situation. This freed her to explore the feelings of uncertainty she had: Not knowing when her Goddess might wake, not being sure how long she was to be tied...minutes? Hours? Overnight? Would she be able to endure until Goddess decided to release her? This girl has a safeword, but never wishes to abuse that privilege, and deciding when to call it is a challenge unto itself. These feelings were compounded by the constantly growing challenge of finding some level of comfort and not being able to move around without significant pain in sensitive places. Leaning forward put pressure on everything: grinding the crotch rope hard into her private parts, pulling it tight into her ass, and squeezing her throat tighter and tighter. Leaning back eased the pressure on her ass, crotch, and throat, but this was a difficult position to maintain without straining her back. Everywhere in between was a trade-off. Lily tried kneeling on the chair, but found that this was equivalently painful at best, with the added difficulty of kneeling on her sensitive knees without much padding. In the end, Lily stood. After a while her throat became dry. This girl dared not disturb her sleeping Goddess, who was positioned between herself and the kitchen, so she took an empty bottle from dinner to the bathroom. The walk down the hall was its own challenge, with the scratchy rope rubbing against her neck and private places with every step and exacerbating her already severe discomfort. Lily finally reached the bathroom, rinsed out her bottle, and filled it with water. It was then that her own body betrayed her. This girl has an almost Pavlovian response to the sound of running water, and even with the rough rope squeezing her tightly where it counts, she almost immediately had to pee. Sitting on the toilet was not a viable option, but with careful movements she was able to safely climb into the bathtub, do her business, and use the shower's spray nozzle to clean up. Despite her best efforts to squeeze everything out, Lily dribbled on the floor twice on the way back, then again as Goddess mercifully woke up to hear her story about the bathroom trip and untie her. Lily was made to clean up her messes, and is very grateful to be resting comfortably as she writes this and Goddess Kali finishes Her well-deserved nap. Some bondage is fun bondage. Lily loves the weight of her usual chains ⛓️, the tightness of the cuffs, and the slight restrictions and difficulty they create for her. Some bondage is...more. Lily can spend a day in her chains with minimal discomfort and enjoy the experience and the constant reminders of her Goddess. Spending an hour tied like this was very challenging and quite painful, but this girl loves that challenge. It brings her great pleasure and pride to see her Goddess' reactions when she is able to endure well, and even more when it earns her a pat on the head and a "good girl." Furthermore, she can feel tangible benefits from her training. Because of her Goddess, Lily can squat lower, bend easier, and endure longer. Not long ago it was painful for her to stand in one place for more than a few minutes at a time. Now she can stand on her toes for tens of minutes and stand in a painful tie for an hour. She feels her own pride in this, as well as the pride her Goddess effusively radiates when Lily does well, and basks in the good feelings this brings. Lily loves to be Goddess Kali's good girl and thanks her Goddess for always loving and challenging her pretty flower. 💜 #BDSM #BDSMstr #Bondage #Discipline #SlaveGirl #Submission #Submissive #SubGirl #Substr #FLR #PraiseKink #Kink #Kinky #Kinkstr #Rope #Tied #TiedGirl #Pee #Piss #NSFW

A girl goes fishing… Today while Goddess Kali was getting ready for work, she commanded Lily to visit a local craft fair and earn at least ten compliments, with the hint that giving a compliment often gets one in return. Lily has heard many stories of her Goddess using this technique to good effect in her public-facing job, and it turned out to be very true, and made this a very enjoyable assignment. Lily came away with much joy and believes she was able to spread joy to many others as well. #1 - Almost upon arriving, Lily found a table run by an old man selling a strange assortment of things, including various tools, car parts, and hanging signs. Among the signs was a wooden paddle with holes in it for a very affordable price. Lily purchased this because Goddess Kali has said that Her spoons do not have enough impact for proper punishment when Lily is a bad girl. Lily complimented the man’s beard and asked how long he had been growing it. He said he started letting it grow after he left the military in ’57 because he was tired of shaving his then-dark dark hair twice a day to look clean-shaven. Now he just lets it grow and trims it when it starts getting in his soup. He also told a story about the paddle. He was at the same fair last year and a woman with three daughters picked it up and said “Ooh, this is just what I need!” at which point the three daughters scattered to the winds in three different directions. Apparently, the threat was enough, because the paddle was still there this year for Lily to bring home to her Goddess. #2 - Lily found a booth operated by women from a local hair and nail salon that was selling lemonade. she purchased a strawberry lemonade, tried it, and said “This is delicious, and it matches my hair!” The woman replied, “It sure does!” and smiled broadly. Lily revisited this booth later in the day, and it will come up again. #3 - Lily passed a stand run by a couple of older men selling a variety of 3D-printed stuff, including alien and predator heads and Chinese dragons. One called out and complimented Lily’s shirt, which is purple with a white moon and black tree silhouettes printed on it. she thanked the man and said it matched her hair until it faded from purple into pink. The other man said “yeah, it matches pretty good,” and asked Lily if she was a teacher because she looks like a professor. Lily said no, but she would be an awesome teacher if she was, to which both men agreed, then we talked about 3D printing for a while. #4 - A few booths later, Lily found herself a pretty hair flower. The lady at the booth was yelling at her kids to stop spending money because they were out of it. Lily asked with a smile if that wasn’t the point of coming to these things, to spend everything you make and then some? The lady laughed at that. Lily showed her the flower and she said, “That’s a dollar, and it will match your colors!” Lily said, “Heck yeah it will,” then put it in her hair opposite her ponytail and posed to show it off before moving on. This got a happy laugh from the lady and a “woohoo!” from her friend in the next booth. #5 - Next, Lily found a small gift for her Goddess to take with Her to work or any other time She is away from Lily and misses her. It’s a little pink resin heart with a purple flower inside that comes with a card reading: “A little pocket hug. This pocket hug is just for you, keep it safe and snug. Take it out and hold it tight when you need a hug.” Lily said she was getting it for her Wife to take to work, and that it was very sweet and matched her hair. The lady smiled and agreed, saying she liked Lily’s colors. #6 - As Lily walked the aisles, a man in military-type gear selling paracord lanyards gave her a nod and said, “Looking good!” as she passed by. Lily smiled and thanked him, recognizing the lanyards, as she was given one by a family member a few years ago that she still uses today. #7 - A few booths down, a lady selling bedazzled journals and coasters stopped Lily and said “I like your pink hair! Don’t see that color often.” Lily said it was originally purple and pink but has faded to almost all pink, but she still pulls it off, along with a smile and a pose. The woman agreed and smiled back. #8 - Lily saw a lady pulling her child around in a wagon who had shoulder length hair that was black and pink, similar to her own. Lily complimented, “I like the dark and pink look. It’s hard to pull it off, but we do it well!” The woman smiled and said, “yeah, we do!” as she moved along. #9 - Barely a minute later, Lily passed the same person, now with two older companions. One of them gave her a big smile and said, “cool hair, I love it!” Lily gave her a big smile back and thanked her. #10 - Lily saw a couple wearing matching black shirts with little orange pumpkins. The girl had fantastic multicolored hair in at least 4-5 different hues, including blue and purple. The boy’s hair was also long but plain brown. Lily said to the girl, “I love your hair colors!” then to him, “You should dye yours to match!” The girl gave a big smile and said, “Oh, thank you! I like yours too.” The boy kind of grimaced and nodded quietly. Lily suspects they may have had this conversation before and he’s not really into it. Maybe the extra encouragement will help. We definitely need more colorful people in the world! #11 - Found a lovely painted rock with what looks like the Rocky Horror lips in rainbow colors. Mentioned loving RHPS and being colorful, to which the shop owner smiled and said, “You are very colorful indeed!” #12 - As the fair was winding down, Lily visited a pierogi stand to pick up dinner. The woman there had apparently watched her wander past earlier, greeting Lily with, “I’m surprised it took this long for the lavender pierogies to draw you over here!” It seems there was some kind of lavender festival the previous weekend that she had made them for. Lily said she was sorry she hadn’t known about it, because she would have fit right in, to which the woman agreed. #13 - Lily passed a man wearing a Fanta Grape shirt with a nice beard. she complimented the beard and said she needs one of those shirts to match her hair. He chuckled a bit awkwardly and said “Yeah, I like your hair,” then turned and wandered away. #14 - As she was dropping things off in the car, Lily saw the owner of the lemonade stand from earlier pull her van up behind the booth and get out. she quickly circled around and asked for two more, one for the road and one to share, saying they were delicious, and that the original lemonade described above and a second not noted here had made spending the day in the hot sun very pleasant. The lady remembered Lily and seemed tickled by this, giving her a third one for free and suggesting the gingerade, which Lily tried and thoroughly enjoyed, being sure to tell her so. As the lady was filling the cups, a man walked up and asked about the lemonade. The lady said she had regular and ginger. He replied, “I know you’ve got other stuff ‘cus those are pink.” Lily said, “Strawberry, and this is my fifth one today!” holding up the strawberry gingerade. He responded, “well, if the lady with pink hair likes the pink lemonade, I’ll take two!” and both he and the lady seemed genuinely pleased by this. With that happy ending, Lily went back to the car and headed home to write up her experience and pick up her beautiful Goddess from work and looks forward to loving and worshipping Her while sharing the outcome of her adventures.

A girl angers her Goddess... Lily lays in bed, quietly sobbing into her pillow from the pain in her back, hips, and butt. This girl was beaten badly by her Goddess tonight, with two wooden spoons broken on her ass, and she is truly thankful for it. This girl deserves it. she made a lot of mistakes before Lily was born. she hurt and disrespected the woman who would be her Goddess, and struggled to hear and take in the anger Goddess @Kali was trying to express. The girl who would be Lily put up high walls and hid behind them, and on the rare occasion she came out of hiding, she would lash out verbally and then physically, hurting the situation and her Goddess instead of helping to make things better. Getting beaten for her current and past failures and misbehavior is a better path. It seems to help Goddess Kali let go of Her anger, and Lily cannot help but feel it. It allows this slavegirl to feel and release her own emotions too, and to show that she is willing to take whatever her Goddess gives. When the beating is over, the fighting ends, the wounds begin to heal, and we don't dig the hole deeper and leave lasting wounds as we have been doing for years. Lily is eternally grateful to her Goddess for accepting her, owning her, and punishing her as part of this new dynamic. This is a way we can heal and grow back together instead of apart, and this girl loves her Goddess for accepting all of it, including Lily herself. #BDSM #BDSMstr #Bondage #Discipline #SlaveGirl #PetGirl #PetPlay #Shackles #Shackled #Chains #Chained #Chastity #ChastityBelt #Submission #Submissive #SubGirl #Substr #FLR #PraiseKink #Kink #Kinky #Kinkstr #Collar #Collared #Feet #Fetish #FootFetish

A girl pleases her Goddess... Today Lily was left home in chains while Goddess @Kali went to work. This girl loves the feeling of being locked into her collar 🔒 with her wrists and ankles shackled. ⛓️ The constant feeling of restraint and the challenges posed by her chains are mentally and physically stimulating, as well as a constant reminder of her beloved Goddess. 💜 Lily is allowed just enough distance between her feet to safely climb the stairs in case of emergency. This keeps her stride length limited, but she is able to take smooth, short steps without tugging on her cuffs if she is careful. Lily enjoys and appreciates this feeling and the jingling of the bells on her ankle chain as she walks because they keep her mindful of her position, situation, and surroundings. If she is to learn how to best please her Goddess, this is a necessary ability to develop. This girl is given a slightly longer chain between her wrists so that she is able to reach keyboard and mouse to work effectively and earn money for her Goddess to keep this wonderful life. Lily likes the feel of the tight cuffs and the weight of the chain on her arms as she moves about and performs her work, and she often has to contend with their restriction to complete a task, which is satisfying in its own way. This girl has long fantasized about being kept in chains, and it is all that she imagined and more, because at the end of her workday she has the privilege of greeting her Goddess on her knees and worshipping Her feet and body to welcome Her home and help Her relax. Today Lily was allowed to kiss, lick, and massage Goddess Kali's beautiful feet and suck Her toes. This girl relishes the feelings and desires that deepthroating her Goddess' foot engenders. They are equally powerful as a reminder of her submission and as an intense and evocative way to bring pleasure to her Goddess. Lily loves how expressive and reactive Godess Kali is while Lily pleasures Her, and this slavegirl is endlessly grateful for the privilege. 💜 After spending a delightful hour massaging and pleasuring Goddess Kali's feet to help Her relax after a long day at work, Lily was commanded to fetch Her favorite toy. This is a vibrating double-sided dildo with one side intended to fit comfortably in Her special place and the other side longer and curved like a cock to go in Lily's ass when Goddess uses it as a strap-on. Goddess also has a thick sheath in the shape of a cock with ribbed sides. She had Lily put this on the ass side of the dildo, significantly increasing its size, then pleasure Her orally while She enjoyed the vibrations and the sight of Her slavegirl eagerly sucking Her cock. As with her chains and the foot worship, this act is a powerful reminder of Lily's submission and her purpose. This girl is a slave to be used for her Goddess' needs and desires, and feeling Goddess Kali's enormous cock bouncing against the back of her throat as she struggles to take in as much in of the shaft as possible plants her firmly in subspace. Lily wants nothing but to bring her Goddess physical and visual stimulation, and doing so fulfills her own mind, body, and soul. As she lies in bed next to her softly snoring Goddess, Lily smiles at the three new marks on the wall, one for each orgasm she helped her Goddess achieve, and feels a deep contentment. This is the life she desires. The life she deserves. The life she has craved but did not have the words and understanding to ask. It was a long and rough road to get here, and this girl will spend every day for the rest of her life eagerly pleasing Goddess Kali to thank Her for keeping Her Lily. For owning her and allowing her to serve and pleasure her amazing Goddess, in whatever form that takes as we grow older and happier together. #BDSM #BDSMstr #Bondage #Discipline #SlaveGirl #PetGirl #PetPlay #Shackles #Shackled #Chains #Chained #Chastity #ChastityBelt #Submission #Submissive #SubGirl #Substr #FLR #PraiseKink #Kink #Kinky #Kinkstr #Collar #Collared #Feet #Fetish #FootFetish

A girl labors in chains... This must be a short entry because Lily has to go help her Goddess take care of some things, but she wanted to make a note of this and her feelings. This morning Lily put on the new purple skirt and woke her Goddess with some delightful foot worship, then She took Her Lily out to breakfast and we spent a pleasant morning together. Lily has the amazing privilege of working from home at a desk (or in a recliner), so when it was time for her to start work today, Goddess @Kali put her in the pretty leather cuffs with chains between her wrists and between her ankles. The ankle chains have tiny bells attached so that Lily jingles when she walks and her Goddess can more easily track Her little flower's movements around the house. This girl wishes she could fully express the depth of her love for this feeling and her gratitude to Goddess Kali for allowing her to experience it. Lily has had fantasies of medieval style shackles, prison transport chains, and semipermanent heavy metal cuffs like she has talked about before for as long as she can remember, and being able to spend a day in chains without disrupting her life makes Lily a very happy girl. Lily's new chastity belt also came in the mail today, and she is anxious to try it! That is one of her other longest-term, deepest fantasies. Lily loves to touch herself, and the thought of pawing helplessly at the cold steel plate covering her sex and being utterly unable to get that feeling without Goddess' permission is a nearly overwhelming submission fantasy. These things came just in time as well! Goddess will be working soon, and She will feel more comfortable knowing that Her little Lily is shackled and chained to her desk at home with her private parts locked up tight. This is a dream come true for Lily, and she will do her very best to support her Goddess in Her endeavors and thank Her in every way she is able. #bdsm #bdsmstr #slavegirl #petgirl #petplay #bondage #shackles #shackled #chastity #chastitybelt #submission #submissive #substr #flr #praisekink #kink #kinky #kinkstr #collar #collared

A girl earns a reward... Goddess Kali had Lily write up some reward cards that she might earn by getting Goddess to go to the gym with her, and Goddess is here with Lily right now. This girl is looking forward to pulling a card to see her reward and enjoying it. 🥰 Goddess also asked Lily to do a piece of her 5x5 set with 5 pounds added and send Her the weight. Curious where that might be going. 🤔 Lily loves the way her Goddess presents her with challenges and encourages her to push beyond her limits but does not force. So far She has not really punished for failure, and She is very loving and gives rewards when Her Lily succeeds. Not that Lily is never punished - she can still feel her last well-deserved beating, but Goddess is wise and applies punishment when necessary and gives rewards liberally through praise, funishments, and more when Lily is a good girl. This girl has already shown great improvement in her ability to squat and stand on her toes, and she hopes to earn a pair of pony boots some day. 🐎❤️ #bdsm #bdsmstr #slavegirl #petgirl #petplay #bondage #submission #submissive #substr #flr #praisekink #kink #kinky #kinkstr #collar #collared

A girl has a face... Lily has a new profile picture for Nostr. she is not permitted her to show her real face, so her generous Goddess spent time with DALL*E via Bing to create a variety of images for her. These will probably get switched out over time or used as inspiration for story posts, but Lily chose this one first with purpose for several reasons. This picture probably has the best approximation of her real hair color right now. Lily has a beautiful purple mixed with what remains of her natural black and pink in a few places for accent, plus one strip of natural white right in front. Goddess Kali did a wonderful job dying Her pretty girl's hair and She loves the attention it gets. Lily basks in the praise and adoration, especially that which comes from Goddess Herself. It invites positive attention in a way that this formerly shy girl craves but used to fear, and it makes her feel like the prettiest girl in the world (ssshhh, don't tell Goddess that Lily ranked herself #1!). 😏 The picture prominently features a lily flower, with the girl staring at it with longing and contemplation, as this Lily looks to her future at Goddess Kali's feet with excitement and openness to new things. Butterflies in the background and on the girl's collar are symbolic of Lily's transformation from the person she once was into the loving and loyal slavegirl, pet, submissive, and servant who will devote her life to pleasing and caring for her perfect Goddess. Finally, the collar. Admittedly there were a few pictures with more realistic collars, but the girls are all blonde, which Lily is not, and this one is beautiful and has the best parts of the others. Lily hopes to one day earn a semipermanent locking collar to which only her Goddess will have the key. Lily has long been fascinated by this idea and has wanted a set of locking steel cuffs and a collar since she first saw a version from Axsmar many years ago. she had once thought to be the one holding the keys, but no longer. Lily desperately craves the feeling of inflexible, unremovable steel wrapped snugly around her wrists, ankles, and especially her neck. Steel that only her Goddess can remove. The mere thought of it makes her excited, and she loves the feeling of being owned that such restraints would impart. Lily looks amazing in her beautiful leather collar, and she loves hearing the tiny click when Goddess locks her into it, but this would be next level for beauty, headspace, and submission. ⛓️💜⛓️ So, this is Lily for now. A pretty, happily collared, devoted slave and lover to her Goddess Kali. This is the life and the submission that she desires, and she eagerly looks forward to all that the future holds. #bdsm #bdsmstr #slavegirl #petgirl #petplay #bondage #submission #submissive #substr #flr #praisekink #kink #kinky #kinkstr #collar #collared

A girl earns her marks... Goddess Kali pleasured Herself on the couch next to Lily while she worked on her long post earlier. Lily enjoyed the feelings of her Goddess writhing and undulating next to her and experienced it as another word we have just learned: Compersion. To borrow a definition from the internet: "Widely understood to be the opposite of jealousy, the term compersion refers to a feeling of joy, fulfillment, or excitement when someone we care about experiences joy, fulfillment, or excitement themselves." We have seen it used more specifically to refer to partners in a non-monogamous relationship finding joy in their partner's sexual encounters with others, but Lily likes this more general definition better. Compersion is something this girl has struggled with in the past. That rabbit hole goes deep beyond the scope of this post, so suffice it to say she has not always shown her Goddess the respect and support that She deserved. Lily was able to feel true compersion for her Goddess in this moment. Where she might have been jealous for not being invited to play or spiteful for missing out on a mark, she was able to find joy in her Goddess' pleasure instead. It helped Lily to stay in the right headspace for writing as she finished her task, and she received a near-karmatic reward almost immediately afterward. After she finished writing, Lily fetched the things for Goddess Kali's bedtime care ritual. Goddess was asleep on the couch but woke up and commanded Lily to touch Her after she finished the care routine. Delighted at the privilege, Lily was allowed to pleasure her Goddess repeatedly and earned herself six marks, a deluge of praise and petting, and an ovation to boot! 👏 Lily is so grateful that she was able to please her Goddess. she loves being used for Goddess Kali's pleasure and felt so happy and loved and rewarded by the praise she received. A simple pat on the head and being called a good girl brings Lily a great joy that touches the deepest parts of her soul in ways she did not know the words for to give them voice until just recently. 💜 Now, please allow Lily to explain the marks she has referenced twice. Goddess Kali's pleasure comes first at all times, of course, but Lily may earn her rewards too. Every time Lily brings her Goddess to orgasm, she is allowed to make a chalk mark on the bedroom wall to keep a running tally. Instead of having a requirement to please her Goddess at a certain frequency or some other demanding approach, Goddess Kali turned it into a fun and rewarding incentive program. For each mark she earns, Lily may spend a dollar on something she wants. When she spends some, the remaining marks are recolored and new marks are made in that color until the next spend, then a third color is chosen, and so on. This controls the amount of money Lily can access, which is discipline that she needs and craves right now. It makes her shiver with antici......pation looking forward to her next purchase, and gives us sufficient time to fully enjoy it. In the past this girl would buy one toy and then get excited about another before the first even arrived, so many of them did not get played with very often. It also gives Lily another reason to offer her Goddess pleasure. Goddess has always been shy about asking, though She has been opening up to it beautifully of late, and this girl has always been bad at offering. The marks and this dynamic in general have greatly eased our tensions around sexual encounters in ways that both of us need and appreciate. Lily loves her Goddess and is very happy under Her ownership and in Her bondage, and she looks forward to wherever this voyage takes us. #bdsm #bdsmstr #slavegirl #petgirl #bondage #submission #submissive #substr #flr #kink #kinky #kinkstr

A girl makes a better choice... Lily had to go downstairs tonight to fetch something for Goddess' bedtime care routine. While she was down there, Lily thought about grabbing a pack of M&M candy from the big box of them. This girl would have done that without thinking twice in the past, but Lily wants more than anything to be a good girl for her Goddess, and decided not to take the candy for several reasons. First, Lily is diabetic and has been having trouble controlling her sugar lately. Sugar taken in at night causes bigger spikes in the morning, so skipping it will help her morning exercise get her sugar level where it is supposed to be. Second, Lily promised Goddess that she would do better with her food and exercising. Both of us desire to be healthy and happy for as long as possible, and Lily wants as much time at her perfect Goddess' feet as she can get. Third and the most influential, Goddess has been using those M&Ms as treats for Her slavegirl when she is pleasing. Lily loved eating them off the garage floor as a treat after Goddess commanded her to write apologies for making Her wait on the floor, then scrub it clean enough to eat from. Lily was also made to hump the cold cement floor like the little bitch she is that night. It was a beautiful and satisfying experience, as well as an effective punishment, and Lily does not wish to take away the value of those candies as treats. Instead she will work hard to please her Goddess whenever she wants some. This is but one of the ways Lily can be a better submissive and slave to her Goddess than this girl has in the past, and she will learn better control to help us both.

A girl goes for a walk... Lily was allowed a short rest to write her earlier posts, and Goddess Kali generously allowed her to nap for a while afterward. This girl woke up from that nap to her Goddess and a pair of handcuffs. At first she thought she might be in trouble. When Goddess cuffed her tightly and told her to roll over on her stomach, Lily thought she might be in for a spanking - a frightening thought while her butt and thighs still bear the marks of her last beatings. That was not to be this girl's fate, however, though the outcome did involve her ass. Instead of the sharp sting of a hand slap or the resounding thwack of a wooden spoon, Lily felt the cool, smooth textures of lube being spread between her cheeks by Goddess Kali's warm, soft fingers. This was followed by the welcome feeling of the double dildo sliding inside her and the stimulating buzz of its vibrator coming to life. It was a wonderful experience!* Goddess has not used Her Lily's ass like that very recently, and it felt like hugging a beloved friend. Being played with there is an interesting sensation, mostly due to the obvious similarities shared with the other activity hosted in the same venue. Lily believes that is part of what makes the sensation so powerful and helps it transcend the borders between pleasure, pain, comfort, shame, and more to create an eclectic blend of moods and physical states that isn't always the same from encounter to encounter. * - Lily truly loves when Goddess Kali plays with her there under any circumstances, but this time had something extra. Something special. Many of the stories and fantasies this girl has indulged in over her years have featured one or more slaves, victims, etc being forced into things they might not otherwise choose. Being used in this way appeals to her on a deep, primal level. How does this relate? When Goddess woke her, Lily was tired with a bit of a headache, and she had to pee. If she had asked for a break, Goddess would have allowed it because She cares deeply for Her little flower, but this girl chose to be quiet and take it like a good girl, and she is very glad she did. Lily is owned by her Goddess, mind, body, and soul. The needs of her Goddess come before her own. That is her purpose, and she must learn that lesson and make it part of her being. Goddess makes sure Her Lily's needs are met, so Lily will make sure her Goddess' needs are met and Her wants indulged, and she will always strive to better please her perfect Goddess. Moreover, Lily's acceptance of Goddess' advances made her feel used, and she wants that. Craves it. Lily loves to please her Goddess and perform for Her, and is very happy that she chose not to break the mood, and in doing so got to experience a real version of feelings she had only fantasized about in a way that made her feel very comfortable and safe. The cherry on top? Lily felt easily able to express this to her Goddess and talk about her feelings on the subject. This girl would have struggled to be open like this in times past, and may have left the encounter with a mess of suppressed feelings. Goddess seemed to have some concern and took it as a hint to ask first in the future, at least most of the time. Lily finds that quite acceptable as well. This girl loves her Goddess for Her constant and genuine show of care and concern, but also welcomes Goddess to use her without asking any time She pleases. That triggers something deep and meaningful for Lily, but this girl does prefer Goddess' softer approach most of the time. Lily also got to wear the tail for a while this evening. It fell out easily once, but this girl was then able to hold it in for some light trotting, which she has had difficulty with in the past. Goddess' squat training is paying off in unanticipated ways! 😁 Tonight Lily's Goddess took her for a walk on a leash to 7-Eleven for drinks. This girl has been on a leash before, quite recently on a trip to the park, but not since being given her name. It was an exquisite experience! Goddess dragged this girl around the house a bit as we were leaving, but for most of the trip she was allowed to walk comfortably at her Goddess' heel with a bit of slack. The weight of the chain hanging from her collar and the delightful feel of Goddess' ownership and control walking at the end of Her leash made it a true delight, and an experience that Lily is anxious to repeat and grow from. On the way home Lily was allowed to walk freely at Goddess' heel because our hands were full, but at the end of the block Goddess ordered Lily to her toes - i.e. to walk on tiptoes until we got home. She did not think Lily was up to the challenge, but She has been training Her slavegirl well. Not only did Lily make it home, but stayed on her toes for at least 20 minutes longer while she started setting up the glider food and Goddess trimmed some nails. Both Goddess Kali and Lily herself were impressed by this. Goddess was very excited and petted and praised Her pretty Lily. This girl loves and basks in her Goddess' praise in a way that is very powerful and very deep. Goddess has been this girl's biggest fan and cheerleader since the day we met. Lily has always loved that, and recently learned it is called a praise kink. The reason Lily has it may never be fully understood, but you don't have to understand a thing to see and leverage its potential. Goddess desires feelings of security and has a kink for giving praise. This girl needs discipline and has craved it in unhealthy ways in the past. Lily needs praise, and Goddess gives it in the best and most healthy of ways. This dynamic gives a framework for both of us to get what we need, and that makes it easier for Lily to wholeheartedly belong to Goddess Kali and willingly and gratefully accept Her ownership. This girl has had a good day, and she loves her amazing Goddess all the more for having spent it together. 🥰

A girl has no gains... ...yet, but she will. Lily was a good girl and got up for the gym this morning. she was not able to get Goddess to accompany her, so no reward, but getting healthier for her Goddess is reward enough. Lily did her 5x5 program today and looked very pretty in the mirror with her collar and purple hair, which matches the gym's decor quite nicely. she backed off her weight levels a bit because she had been struggling where they were at due to twinges in her right knee and being at the very limit of what she can handle with some of the lifts. This will allow Lily to make daily gym trips as Goddess commanded without injuring herself and comfortably and safely progress to her previous weight levels and beyond. After exercising herself, Lily went to get drinks in case her Goddess was thirsty. Walking into the store, she wished that she had worn the Vibe t-shirt she got yesterday when a cute girl wearing the same shirt passed her and exclaimed "I really like your hair!" This girl was delighted by the positive attention and reported it to her Goddess as soon as she was back to the car. Lily loves being a bright and beautiful reflection of her Goddess' love and care, and she will work to be a healthier one as well. #bdsm #bdsmster #slavegirl #submissive #exercise

A girl has a name... Lily was named by her Goddess yesterday and is very happy with her new designation. 🥰 Lily asked for this name because she knows Goddess likes several kinds of lily flower, and Goddess has recently been referring to Her slavegirl as a flower and talking about helping her bloom. At first this girl was not sure about being named at all, and then she thought about the name Lily for a day before asking Goddess to name her to make sure it would feel comfortable to say and think about. Needless to say, Lily made the right choice. Goddess was so open and accepting, and She seems to genuinely enjoy the name as well. That makes Lily so happy and proud! When Goddess calls this girl a pretty Lily and pets her, it makes her heart melt with joy and love. 🥰❤️ There is more to say about her name, so Lily will revisit this topic soon. #bdsm #bdsmstr #flr #slavegirl #petgirl