200 NOSTR followers. What a milestone :).






In the last two years, the quality of my everyday lived reality has reached a completely new level. A level that I never thought was possible. I feel like I've been reborn. Every day is experienced with ease and without any struggle. All problems turned into interesting games, communication is not a problem, I no longer feel embarrassed, I've stopped being nervous, and I've experienced the wonderful feeling of being spontaneous, switching off my mind and letting my body be guided by a the famous magical flow experienced by artists, athletes, and others.
It's as if I had lived with a bag over my head for 29 years. It's as if I had a transparent curtain around me since puberty, which has now been lifted. It's as if I were whole life underwater and now emerged and discovered that I can breathe normally. Life is suddenly beautiful and easy. I feel beautiful myself (even if it may sound egoistic, it's just how it is), and everyone is beautiful in some way. I can play with children for hours without suffering and constantly checking the time and... well, that's probably enough, I think you get it.
Lets get to the question of what the fuck caused this tremendous change? The answer is - I don't know. I have absolutely no idea. But I can write down things that I have changed or done in the last two years, and maybe it will inspire someone with similar feelings of not living fully, with feelings, that there must be something better, otherwise this life just kind of sucks. This is how I eventually got to the "something better" I have sought after for years.
1- My second son was born.
2- I stopped working in my field and started living extremely minimalisticaly, doing only things that I enjoy + doing a few primitive odd jobs just for money (maximum 3 months per year).
3- I started living with my family in a van as nomads. Full time. Most of the year, I don't worry about what will happen tomorrow, in a week, or in a month, we just exist.
4- I did ayahuasca. Twice. During the first experience, I relived my own birth (which helped me to resolve issues with my mother), and during the second, I literally crashed to the ground and briefly died (experiencing that famous and infinite nothingness) and spent hours reconstructing reality back thought by thought.
5- I started eating a carnivorous diet and gained an unprecedented amount of energy every day.
6- I got into bitcoin/cryptoanarchist/anarchocapitalist/lunarpunk community and found out what freedom truly means.
Something from this list caused it (or I think so). It could have been just one thing. It could have been everything together. Or something completely different. Who knows. Maybe try something and see. I wish you a happy journey :).
Do you have similar feelings with something you started few years back?


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