My profile, my shit! 🤘🤟✌️

OK, somewhat stabilizing. Phone turned off and a truly slow and systematic workout until muscle failure, #zen is reached. This guy named Dunbar said that you need at least 3-4 close relations in your life in order to feel happy. By a fluke of entropical shit, I lost 3 friends over the course of a couple of weeks. Don't worry I have some spare ones, but that shit hurt bad, for a while, real bad.. The way of the Tao The gym is my temple. Zen ☯️

Anyone here into DJ equipment?

Gm nostr! ☢️🌞

And so i'm officially single again - but damn i wish it had worked out. I know it's wishful thinking cause I have entry after entry where i'm loosing my mind over frustration and pain. This relationship impacted my well being sent me into corners dark. I know she was not right because I have a handful of unsent letters where I immaturely bring up her wrongs. Grateful I never licked those envelopes closed. During this 1½ year I learned and I grew. We ended it respectfully. I'm relieved it's finally over. But now that it is; - I can't help but miss her. Why?

I want to sleep, I'm tired, brain please go standby.

I need to find more people to follow/interact with. My closest friend on #nostr is a bot that broadcasts bitcoin blockheight - i don't even give a shit about bitcoin. #needfriends #lfg #whovibeswithme

It's wedsneday. I think. Yeah def wednesday. #soloadventure

I wish I knew what I was doing but most of the time I have no clue.

Today I spoke to my ex about recent events. We haven't really talked in a long time. Hell, it's been 3 years already. She's still an insecure creature who lashes out with venom, so I stepped with mortal caution through the colorful garden of berserk buttons. Me ouch.. it hurt, but not too bad. I believe all relations are good given the right amount of physical and emotional distance. Some people you wanna have far/far away, others far/close, still searching for Mrs. close/close, but meanwhile - a drink with miss close/far sounds nice. Anywhoo, we had a good talk. I gained some insight in shame and pride. Seems both emotions can prevent you from asking help when you most need it. Just pickup the phone and call 🤙 I am guilty as charged of course, but I've learned to be grateful. The people who love you, are either immune to shame or shamefully attracted. I'm relieved that some parts of my old friend are still there: I missed you. Take care for now