i can actually just write what happened here into my personal book, but i think it will be just useless when in the end, nobody reads it. so, whatever it is, i will just write it when keeping my boundaries clear.

that's all i need to write here today.

wish myself luck.

i really do not know what is the fate of the next generation of our family, let alone myself.

you can say that i am lucky, and you can also say that my parent are lucky. since, the four of us apparently just so happen to be good in the end of the day, despite whatever happened over the past few years.

i myself couldn't guarantee that i could do the best, but whatever it is, i will try what i can do just to make it good. that's all i can do, honestly.

and to be honest, when he said the plan for the land to me, i am a bit sad but to really realize, time fade so fast, and so did everyone slowly getting older. i always thought about how fast my parent has aging since middle school year, and now just realizing it in this position just feels so odd. I was not prepared for it, But neither i can do anything about it. Guess i will just try to get myself better.

Despite the land is far from the city, He apparently pick that spot because it has something that he liked for a long time.

My dad apparently owned a land somewhere, specifically made for when he reached his old age.

night.

ERA - Ameno

cloudy...

hungyyy... hungyyyy... hungyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

sooner or later i might leave nostr, AGAIN, because WTF you telling me that 100 GB vanished NOT EVEN A MONTH

even after being not so active in fedi, blobcat is still my beloved fictional creature

apparently i realized that the myself that's beign reflected by a mirror is apparently different than the me irl. when dad shot a photo of myself, well, "oh this is how people looked at me." "why the hell i looked like a terrifying male that wants to eat someone's head in fury"

ah..

.... :eve_relax: