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"the bigger the crash out, the harder the locked in" - some rando on Crypto twt

Cutest thing Taking my friend's kids trick or treating>>>> There's this kid about 5 years old Just learning some Spanish He says everyone gets 3 pieces of candy He starts teaching me to count in Spanish So I teach him to count in French [The language is similar enough and the parents want him to be multilingual and he's young enough to absorb everything] It was just like a really cute moment Or I thought it was anyway

Rough week Guy butthurt I didn't fuck him: Oh yeah and learning all that language has gotten you nothing financially Waste of time Ever kid I taught new phrases to in various languages (mostly French this month): Appreciated it So I mean.... /Shrug

Kinda odd ... Russians moving into this particular town... It definitely feels weird. Especially considering what it was .. even just 5 years ago...

It's been a weird night

"мы скоро будем там"

> butthurt bitch wants to hit me with car > My honest reaction >> I didn't know you was trying to buy me a house Ha 🤣😭🤣🤣🤣

As cliche as it feels Misery loves company No one takes accountability Virtue signaling is easier than the truth Everyone loves their delusions People will try to dim your light to make theirs seem brighter Can't please everyone Most people are just emotional vampires People take shit too personally People are generally insane - they just don't know it I've observed so much I'm not sure what's left to learn Or how many ways I can repeat the same things - show the same lessons At least when it comes to the nature of humans I'm pretty much spent

> make weird references > Accidentally say something I shouldn't > It's fine people think I'm crazy anyway >> Ofc they're kinda ... Herp derp... So idk if we should be judging here.

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I'm about done with people... Long story short > Guy is asshole > Deny guy pussy > Guy becomes bigger asshole > I become asshole > Guy wants to run me over with car

August 18 2025 Russian spies in France

Nothing is more fragile than the ego of a narcissist. I find it weird how I can do a new (for me) version of trauma dumping and the narcissist watching my page thinks everything is about him. How odd it is to see him trying to flip the script on me by projecting. Witnessing meltdowns at a distance is one thing, but when they're blowing your phone up knowing you need to sleep for work and while you're reconnecting with your sister, whom you haven't spoken to in many years, it's a different type of feeling. Telling him he's not as important to her must have shattered him. I've noticed he will constantly try to push my boundaries and become meaner and more cruel and expect me to take it, as if that's not abusive. He eavesdropped on my conversations for weeks just to learn how to control me. So I'm sure that block came as a surprise. Eventually I will collect my thoughts and write about this loser more in depth. Side note: I can't let it slide forever He took a shower Asked for a towel Someone brought him one Joking about him being naked I said there's a child in the room (~15/16 yo) He said "she's old enough" That was really weird and it was uncomfortable

Every time a guy flirts with me, my friend can’t help herself... she has to swoop in and take over. It’s like a compulsion. Even though she’s in a relationship, she’ll start flirting back immediately, as if she needs to reassert dominance in the room. When I told her I hooked up with our mutual friend James, she couldn’t just let that sit. She started dirty texting him and later told him to his face that he was “the one that got away.” Then, when her own roommate showed interest in me, and wanted something physical, she suddenly decided *he* was the one she “should’ve fucked” in the past. She openly flirted with him — right in front of me — and even said, “I always want what I can’t have.” She talks a big game about being “that bitch”, that is to say, that bitch that will fuck you and ruin you without batting and eye... and now claims she wants an open relationship with her boyfriend, but only for herself. She wants the freedom to sleep with whoever she wants, while keeping her boyfriend loyal... Over worked, in debt, and sexless. It’s not about love, or even attraction at this point, with him. It’s about validation, control, and ego. From my perspective, it’s not just that she actually wants these men-- it’s that she wants to win some imaginary competition. The moment I become the object of someone’s interest, she sees it as a threat to her sense of superiority. She feeds on the attention, on being the center of desire, as if every flirtation is proof of her worth. It’s performative confidence masking insecurity. Her attitude is more about self-preservation than empowerment... a way to convince herself she’s untouchable while she’s actually terrified of being lesser and not an option. At this point, it has become obvious it’s not about me or them necessarily, it’s her need to be desired at all times, control, and feeling superior. And the funny part? The moment I stop reacting or playing into it, she loses her grip. Because without the competition, there’s no stage left for her performance. If I don't give her the satisfaction of knowing it bothers me and counter it by creating cracks in her illusion, she shuts up and gets really tired. I just kill her dopamine boost mid go. Psychologically, what’s going on with her is pretty transparent once you strip away the theatrics. She operates from a place of ego insecurity masked as confidence. The flirting, the one-upmanship, the need to “steal the show”, as it were, it’s all about control of perception. She measures her worth through how desired she appears in contrast to others, especially other women she subconsciously sees as competition. Her behavior points toward a mix of narcissistic validation-seeking and attachment anxiety. When someone flirts with me, it triggers a quiet panic in her... a sense that her status as the alpha is being challenged. So she reclaims it by diverting the man’s attention. It’s not sexual attraction; it’s psychological territory-marking. The reason I say it's not sexual attraction, is because a man can be ugly as sin and she'll still crave the attention... However, a man can look good and if he's interested in me and she cannot contact him, he automatically becomes ugly. She will try to tear him down and laugh in my face. She doesn't want me to feel desirable, or even good about my options because it will hurt her ego. And that's really the kicker. She hopes I stay alone and miserable. The only time she pushes me towards a guy, is if she already has some control over him. So, no... I will not ever bring a love interest around her. Our friendship is basically at it's end.

You'd think that they'd at least say happy birthday to me.. but no ofc not. Just more confirmation that this is the right move. No one wants to be around people that talk about you behind your back constantly and start shit.

My closure was standing up for myself and leaving everyone with a parting gift. No drama No crash out No giving them the reactions they wanted No feeding into the delusion I feel like I've grown

When someone shows you who they are... IRL... The patterns are consistent and clear. Don't waste time thinking they'll change. They won't. If they're a narcissist, you'll never have real closure and your feelings aren't valid to them. Just walk away.