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I am 100% mentally sober and physiologically rested but I have no idea why I am feeling this way.
I am empty but not empty and I have no idea how to explain it even to myself.
I feel like I want to rip the bones out of my niece body ( that how much I love her ) but I don’t feel like having my own.
I am receiving dozens of followers requests from men on an app but I don’t feel like it.
I was convincing myself that PhD is what I need but I don’t feel like it.
I am even refusing to go on vacations because I don’t feel like it.
I don’t even feel like I want anything but then what? This (then what?) is too scary to deal with.
If I were to have a job, I don’t believe that it will last for more than 2 months.
I am sick and tired of watching posts of cups of coffee in selfies with cropped faces.
I petty you because you have a real world to talk about whilst all I can see in my language is women talking makeup and skincare products and men who are broadly expressing an admiration for a vision they haven’t created themselves.
Imagine watching a grown ups fighting over gender and identity leaving behind your realist concerns?
1- you aren’t doing it for the sake of revolutionary act 2- you aren’t passionate about it 3- you have been compromised by the lobbyists even if you hate to admit it
How is it possible that you have a 1000+ followers and still haven’t succeeded in establishing a revolutionary movement about something you truly passionate about?