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You have to make major decisions in order to get yourself back on track.
Had the chance to live the American dream but some minimal bad choices caused me to fail. I am totally in a good term with myself today when it comes to that because I knew when I had to STOP and stopped it; that is maturity.
At least I am in a total control of my surrounding when it comes to my very own choices.
Had to completely move myself out of it. And I can tell you today: it is worthy no matter how hard it seems to be.
Yeah, doing just that wasn’t easy. Had to sacrifice too in return.
At the very beginning, exploration and integration is fun but later on it is just isn’t worth sacrificing who you originally is; your identity, vision, dreams and culture.
You can’t survive or live happily within a culture that isn’t yours.
It was a terrible feeling, sorry that you had to go through it too but it shall pass once you completely remove yourself out of it.
I like it here but what happened to me? that isn’t me nor what I have ever wanted to be.
Boxed because you want to be there but your past younger, way more ‘successful’ you hates it.
Nothing is too complex, unfortunately, you’re just being boxed.
I have been there, Where I had to do things just to prove a point then I immediately stopped when I realised that I was slowly manipulated into doing exactly what they wanted me to do🤷🏻‍♀️