Aaah, if life were a super warm waterfall with unlimited supplies of body-wash and yogurt😮💨
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I am just so freezing cold deeply inside.
My dopamine is not even stimulated negatively or positively by friendships, intimacy, or socialising.
My family though is an exception. They succeed sometimes in kicking unpredictable amount of dopamine into my system.
I might need for a gaming set like back in the days
Vacations? Nope
Shopping? Nope
Shows? Nope
Reading? Nope
Learning? Nope
Success? Nope
Money? Nope
Food? Nope
Showers? Yes
Sports? Yes
Video games? Yes
Cooking? Yes
Dressing up? Nope
Cigarettes? Yes
My warm room late at night? Yes
I can’t even name one thing that would kick it in my system.
I can’t even remember when was the last time I was stimulated by it?
Honestly, nowadays, people in general are starving for fake dopamines and that’s universal.
People are celebrating the fact that they are going to be 10 years older at that point of their lives.
Sigh 😮💨
My mom is an old school woman and she deeply believes that I am in the danger zone according to her traditional ideas about life overall. so she keeps saying: who are you doing that for? Your room?
I tell her: duh, for myself😅
That’s lots of fat🙃
Current bmi is 20 at 55 kgs.
Can’t wait for the final results😀
No gym no exercise, just IF for up to 23 hours a day with some abs work every now and then.
I have lost 14 kgs since last July, 10 kgs to go reaching 45 kgs by the end of February 2025. Must take my bmi down to 16-15 from 22-23. If needed to reach the desired bmi, I might need to reach 40 kgs instead.
Exciting.
So, now what?
Smooth transition didn’t work, it is impossible to get ride of me🤷🏻♀️
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I have no clue what have they been waiting for since 2017?Apparently, it has something to do with me and only me.
You have to make major decisions in order to get yourself back on track.