I'm not convinced ANY of the layer-2s are really the best solution, or will still be around in 10 years, except maybe as a very specialized solution to a niche use case. I mean, someone is still using Liquid, right? So I'll use lightning for now, but I'm not putting any further investment into it. Anything I am currently using lightning for, I expect to use something else for in the future.

People seem like they're a special kind of high right now. Like just disassociative, in some way. So here's this, if the universe is actually multiple overlays of energy that make up a composite reality, is this how it would appear when an energy overlay is slightly out of phase? GN. (not really, but like this as a gn note better then the other note I'm about to send)

Tomorrow morning I get my CT scan for my CAC score. I expect a non-zero result. I still feel like this is going to be the most significant medical test I have taken in quite some time. Probably even more important will be retaking this test next year.

2 weeks, no nicotine. It's happening. Much easier once I discovered (had never been told it like this before) that life as a smoker means living daily in a state of withdrawal. Even one cigarette means that I will instantly put myself into nicotine withdrawal for at least the next 3 days. Even one hit off a vape - anything that puts any nicotine back into my system, because as soon as it is there, the mind becomes aware about 10-15 minutes later that it is not there anymore, and the psychosis of withdrawal begins again. It is the very same psychosis of withdrawal that convinces us to have the first cigarette in the morning, and the next one after that, and will kick in minutes after finishing a cigarette or any other nicotine going in your body, every time. There isn't some critical mass of nicotine, or number of cigarettes that will be OK. So now, NOT having another cigarette means NOT having to be in withdrawal. That's it. Living life in withdrawal sucks, no matter how great the nicotine itself may feel. Recognizing this has made a huge difference in managing cravings, being in situations where I would be triggered, etc. I've already stopped using bupropion; its job is done. That was really the only thing that I used as a crutch. No tapering down, just quit. had a relapse 25 hours in, went through about 1 1/2 packs, finished the pack I bought, quit again, haven't had any nicotine since 23:30 on July 15.

Another 250+ miles on the motorcycle today. Another closed road that was passable, and a closed road that was not passable. May do a shorter ride tomorrow; if so I will be over the 1000 km mark for the weekend.

GM. While simps are simping the simpshow in simptown, I'm going to put some more miles on the motorcycle. Headed to Tillamook (like the cheese) in a bit. Might touch the ocean.

Rode around Mt. St. Helens today. Literally, one big loop, with a detour up to the remaining observatory.

Just CTM at just about everything in my feed. Conferences? Nope, not interested. Honeypots and distractions. Waste of coin. Podcasts? Oh well. There's plenty of lesser-known voices out there that would live to have your ear. Or maybe listen to something completely different. Broaden your horizons instead of sitting in the echo chamber. Exchanges? Maybe a necessary evil, but use what works while it is available. These things don't last forever. Politicians? Really? You guys still think they matter, like, at all? Ok, you do you. Sats aren't the only thing I stack, because at some point, there will be change, and it will be time to act. Until then, enjoy your diversions, friends!

Kill all your heroes. Take your coin off all exchanges. Stay humble, stack sats. Be ready to change anything you thought you knew at a moment's notice, because that is all the notice you will ever get. GN, until next GN.

Day 7 nicotine free. 2 more weeks before I'l really feel in the clear. Already functioning better without continuous withdrawal, but my diet has suffered. That's ok, much easier to fix that in a couple weeks. GN.

My grinder came today. Tonight's mission - grind up about 25 lbs of dog food. All meat, no bullshit. 20 lbs of chicken leg quarters are ready to go, along with organ meats. #butchersdog #carnivore

My stated purpose has been, for some time, to serve as a positive example to my children. This is my prime directive. Sure, there are other things I value, but above all else, this. I don't know how this would change if my children no longer existed. That is something I don't care to think about. I suppose I would either find a new purpose, or things would go really poorly for me. I needed to affirm this, because as this is my stated purpose, addiction cannot square with this purpose. That goes for any addiction - nicotine, sugars, caffeine, etc. Any amount of pretending it could be OK is complete bullshit cope. GN nostr, it may be tomorrow before I send another note.

Ok, working on day 5 of no nicotine, and realizing my why this time around isn't all that strong. I think I'm mainly in it to see if it helps my blood pressure numbers. I'm just not all that scared of the cancers, now that I don't fuel them with sugar. My social circle doesn't frown on nicotine, almost the opposite. Right now I could easily see quitting for a year or two, not seeing a ton of improvement in bp, and starting up again.

69 hours. GN.

45 hours. GN.