who would go to school to be a doctor?

i mandala most things dont backup phones reset them lose voice memos lose notes

for how long

850 days ago 6.4.2011 "sense of gloom, working on it commit[ed] to resolving it for is it not the entity of human on earth, the entity of angel"

552 days ago 29.01.2012 dreamed about alot of wind at the base of [redacted] meeting [redacted] rd. keep repeating: "it's a blessing to lose everything once in your life." the wind. sunset in the west reflecting the clouds. fighter jets- 3 groups in formation. think it is the galactic federation. it is not. flying north - 3 groups of 30

also undated, also before i came back here *please dont give yourself an appetite you didnt come to earth with*

also undated, also before i came back here: [smother mother & fret over please stop w/ dudes w/ motherwounds]

i thought about sharing a page of my notebook but then, i decided i didnt want to do a handwriting in this notebook reveal so i'll have to type it. undated, before i came back here [ maybe the ego doesn't know it exists maybe it knows by affecting change out in the world as evidence of existence does ego arise from language? is it our method of language acquisition? ]

i'll tell you what i dont make bets never have but i can forecast weather here & there

how would i know wouldnt affect me in the slightest i barely know shit i just sit here watching shit as the clock runs out

how hard is that drop gonna be

how long can that be afforded

who can afford to be angry in this economy

what anger

what does it take to get angry what does my anger look like what is the cost of it

fuck off a billion

unsustainable in the long term. View quoted note →

~note~ reader, it couldve been so on, what would have followed would have been full of ribbons & twirls but i have a deeper commitment than my joy & fun in writing & playing with words & so imagine it or dont but it's not spilling forth from me like this at this time in this way at god only knows what cost or benefit to who knows