Be self ish not selfish ๐
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Notes to my self
Mind via senses is designed to go towards objects and create "good" n "bad" sensations ( experience?)
Mind goes or attention goes?!
Forwarded:
Before awakening:
'i love you' means, i love your stories and lies, because it suits my stories and lies!
After awakening: it means the love is everpresent in spite of your stories and lies!
Will whiskey fix my headache?
Mind ( ego)wants to be valued, respected, seen , identified and appear as separate ( special/best/great) but presence doesn't have any preferences . Its choice less.
We are not living life , we are life.
We're craving for self realization...thst oneness thst we are but mind thinks its via sex
Fame robs you off your privilege of privacy in public spaces forever
Ahem
Tragedy is till any worldly desire is within ,the truth won't get realized . Because that desire will be enough to give reality to the mind.
Devils exist when we aren't aware of them
Mind will continue to desire , want things that makes us feel good and avoid pain, boredom . That's its functioning. Always running from one object to another n never resting without any thought . Each thought has some feeling.
Let it all go down , let all goals burn down , fail ! How many lifetimes we( mind) have had ? How many relationships, objectives, children , parents, siblings , desires, name , fame , experiences ? All got over, died , departed, finished .
Its painful when we have relationship and when we don't. We want some perfect situation and keep running towards it like a ghost from one life to another.
Relationship itself might be painful as two separate persons( mind) collide
Mind thinks its over n all is so worthless . It doesn't want to live anymore to remove /avoid that cloud of pain/depression/hopelessness . Mind makes the objective n wants to die if it fails . It is like trump sponsoring gaza genocide n wanting nobel prize for ending it. Mind is the cause of all sufferings n excitements. N it wants these constantly n no boredom suffering. Mechanism of mind is robotic ๐ค
Solace , permanent solace is found only in God/self realization. Even thought of God is peace giving . That feeling of absolute/God/self is always here and is whole . Our minds want somethings in world to give that permanent peace . We mistake excitement/pleasure probably for happiness n that's not permanent . Joy is in realization of truth.
As a person its v painful to realize u r alone as a person probably wants to be together . Is being together called love ?
I have to accept i am alone in the journey.