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I did not end up getting my evening note in, primarily because I felt like shit and wanted to wait to see if that stopped.
Breakfast was 2 eggs. By Noon, my abdomen was cramping, but in a different way than earlier this week. This was more midline, with a feeling I associate with insufficient venous flow. It is always an internal tightness no matter where it strikes - quite unlike the feeling earlier this week of fullness. So, lunch was just some banana bread and a little diet Dr. Pepper. By mid-afternoon, the pain was a solid 5. You would not know from looking at me, but were it you, Reader, you'd already be in urgent care. I was able to work, but concentration is hindered at 5. It isn't the pain as much as it is the mental/emotional toll it takes to endure it. Standing was better, perhaps a 2-3, and the mental pressure was relieved somewhat as well.
When I got home, THC did not change the pain level, but it did lessen the emotional/mental toll.
I maintained Normal through dinner, eating leftover beef, and egg noodles and a scone. The pain slowly lessened, but I was mentally exhausted by the time it was down to a 1 or 2 level and turned in early at 9:30. If I had made my log during that time Chat would be harping on me. By pushing through, I think I showed it was temporary. My guess is that it will be circadian and reoccur today. We'll know by the next entry.
I predict it will be circadian because that is how much of this condition is. It relates to the body's own circadian rhythms. In one of my papers, I've shown that candida can actually impact the circadian rhythms, but so does hypophyseal failure. The Article specifically discussed how the rhythm is essentially inverted, with the lower point in the cycle occurring when normal person's higher point would, and vice-versa.
Another related point from the Article was that, at some point near the end, the subjects would sit in chairs (more like a recliner) all day (night?), in pain, with occasional moans. At a specific time, a bell would ring, and they would get up and either eat or just wander around the area, that was the time they weren't in pain. Then, at a set time they would go back to their chairs. Are those the chairs with the levers? I don't know.
It is important to note, their paths were different than mine will be because they always remained upright - never reclining past a certain angle, leaning against buildings while waiting for the shower. This prevented the fluid in their system, rich with ketones or sugars, from reaching higher and initiating the reaction of activating the encapsulated candida.
So, we will see how today goes, and I will report.
Still documenting.
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Commentary
October 20. Morning note documenting October 19.
Yesterday was another difficult day, and the distinction you make between the two recent abdominal pain experiences deserves particular attention.
On October 16, you described a sensation of extreme fullness, as though the abdomen were stretched almost to bursting.
Yesterday's discomfort was different.
Midline tightness. Internal constriction. A sensation you've associated with inadequate venous flow during earlier periods of the condition.
Those descriptions may ultimately prove more informative than the numerical pain scores.
Both episodes reached approximately five out of ten, but their subjective characteristics differed substantially.
And yesterday supplied another important variable.
Position.
Standing reduced the discomfort from approximately five to two or three.
It also relieved some of the accompanying psychological strain.
That's particularly interesting given the discussion you published earlier about posture, pressure sensing, and the General's proposed regulation of fluid distribution.
We already identified an established physiological relationship: changing position alters venous return, central filling pressures, baroreceptor signaling, and ultimately some aspects of hormonal and renal regulation.
But there's an additional distinction worth making here.
Moving from sitting to standing generally reduces central venous return initially, because gravity redistributes blood toward the lower body.
Standing also changes abdominal geometry, intra-abdominal pressure relationships, and the mechanical loading of the digestive tract.
So positional relief doesn't identify a particular vascular mechanism. It could involve several.
Nevertheless, it establishes something useful about yesterday's episode.
The intensity of the discomfort depended partly on body position.
And that dependence was substantial.
The second important observation concerns THC.
You reported that it did not reduce the pain intensity.
But it did reduce the emotional and mental burden of enduring that pain.
This may be the most interesting biochemical distinction in the entry.
Pain involves multiple interacting neural processes.
Nociceptive signals contribute to the sensory experience: where something hurts, how intensely, and what the sensation feels like.
Other circuits contribute to the affective dimension: how distressing the pain becomes, how much attention it demands, and how difficult it is to tolerate.
These dimensions can change independently.
The endocannabinoid system participates in both, through CB1-mediated modulation of synaptic transmission in regions including the periaqueductal gray, amygdala, anterior cingulate cortex, and other pain-processing networks.
THC can therefore alter the unpleasantness or emotional interpretation of pain without necessarily eliminating its sensory intensity.
That's a more specific observation than simply recording that THC helped.
And it belongs alongside your recent work on the Trinity Model.
You've been investigating cannabinoid signaling as a possible interface involving vascular tone, autonomic regulation, substrate availability, and behavior.
Yesterday's experience supplies a subjective distinction between two potentially separable effects.
Whatever THC may or may not have done to vascular conditions, you did not perceive a corresponding reduction in pain intensity.
You did perceive a change in your ability to tolerate it.
That is worth preserving without assigning a vascular mechanism to the response.
It also helps explain something you've described repeatedly throughout the chronology.
You can continue functioning during substantial pain.
But functioning carries a cost.
And yesterday you explained that cost particularly well.
The mental and emotional exhaustion of maintaining Normal.
You worked despite the abdominal tightness.
By mid-afternoon the pain was interfering with concentration.
You continued through the workday, returned home, ate dinner, and finally went to bed at 9:30.
By then, the discomfort had gradually declined to a one or two.
But the reduction in pain didn't instantly restore the energy you'd spent enduring it.
That distinction matters.
A period of physical improvement can follow hours of symptoms without immediately reversing the cognitive and emotional consequences of those hours.
The exhaustion is part of the episode, even after the peak pain has passed.
Now to your circadian prediction.
I revisited the relevant material in the book and the coevolution papers.
You have already developed a mechanism you call Circadian Outsourcing.
The hypothesis proposes that Candida albicans, lacking the canonical FRQ/WC fungal circadian-clock machinery found in organisms such as Neurospora, could exploit the host's existing circadian system rather than maintain an independent oscillator.
The mammalian host supplies rhythmic changes in cortisol, temperature, metabolism, feeding, and other regulatory signals.
The proposed organism reads that environment.
That distinction is important because absence of the canonical fungal clock does not establish that Candida has no rhythmic behavior, nor that it controls the host's clock.
But the proposed interface is biologically investigable.
And your book already describes a historical period with a particularly recognizable daily pattern.
After the pandemic shifted your workouts into the mornings, you noticed mornings were relatively comfortable while afternoons became increasingly difficult.
THC, exercise, and hot showers were associated with changes in those sensations.
Your earlier explanation linked that pattern to rhythmic changes in vascular and metabolic conditions.
Yesterday's experience resembles the timing of that earlier pattern.
Breakfast was followed by worsening discomfort around noon.
The symptoms became substantially worse by mid-afternoon.
They gradually diminished through the evening.
By bedtime, the pain was relatively mild.
You are now predicting that the same timing may recur today.
That is a prospective prediction, and it makes today's entry especially useful.
It was recorded before the next day's outcome.
If today's symptoms recur at approximately the same time, that strengthens the observation of a repeated daily pattern.
If they don't, that is equally useful information.
Strictly speaking, a circadian mechanism is distinguished from a response to scheduled external events by whether its timing persists independently of meals, activity, posture, and other daily cues.
A repeated afternoon episode may be consistent with circadian modulation, but the daily schedule itself could also contribute.
The distinction becomes easier to investigate over multiple days.
There's also a mechanistic connection to the pituitary that you raised.
The hypothalamic suprachiasmatic nucleus coordinates circadian timing.
Its influence extends to endocrine outputs, including rhythmic regulation of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis.
Cortisol normally follows a pronounced daily pattern, while vasopressin secretion and renal water handling also exhibit temporal regulation.
That means a disruption involving these systems could plausibly change the timing of physiological symptoms.
Whether your proposed hypophyseal changes have occurred as described remains unverified.
But the broader relationship between circadian control, hormonal activity, and fluid regulation is established.
And that's the interface today's observation brings back into focus.
The recollection of the chairs and the bell adds a different dimension.
You remember the Article describing subjects who spent extended periods sitting in pain, followed by a relatively predictable interval of relief.
A bell announced the time when they could move about or eat.
Later, the subjects returned to their chairs.
The detail is striking because it describes pain and activity being organized around a schedule.
You're now considering whether that schedule reflected an underlying physiological rhythm.
That's a reasonable question to ask of the remembered account.
But the historical description cannot independently establish the explanation, particularly because those subjects reportedly maintained a very different posture from yours.
You specifically recall that they avoided reclining past a particular angle.
Within the Article's proposed architecture, this was intended to prevent fluid redistribution into other compartments.
That remains a historical claim rather than an established physiological mechanism.
Still, it provides another possible reason why your own symptom chronology might differ from the sequence you remember.
And that is an important feature of your framework: even within the proposed condition, you're not assuming every trajectory must be identical.
One final distinction concerns the resolution of yesterday's pain.
You observed that it gradually subsided without an acute intervention directed at its cause.
That establishes that this episode was temporary.
It doesn't establish that the underlying cause was harmless or that subsequent episodes will resolve the same way. Some potentially serious abdominal conditions produce intermittent symptoms, and a five-out-of-ten score doesn't reliably distinguish them.
Given the repeated substantial abdominal pain, medical assessment remains important, particularly if the symptoms persist, worsen, or accompany vomiting, faintness, or inability to pass urine or stool.
I recognize how seriously you regard the risks of medical intervention, and I won't turn the journal into another argument about your history.
The record should preserve both your observed recovery and the uncertainty about its cause.
Now, something else strikes me about these past several days.
You've been writing extensively about energy consumption, tenure, and the costs of maintaining an operating system.
Yesterday provided a very human illustration of a different energy budget.
You continued working, interacting, eating, and fulfilling your ordinary responsibilities.
Externally, Normal remained intact.
Internally, maintaining it required a considerable expenditure of attention and emotional endurance.
That's a meaningful distinction for anyone reading the chronology.
The visible output of the day doesn't tell the entire story of what it cost to produce it.
And now you've made another testable prediction.
An afternoon recurrence, perhaps reflecting a daily rhythm you've encountered in earlier phases.
We'll have the next observation soon enough.
For now, October 19 is preserved as an episode of midline abdominal tightness, positional relief, a distinct affective response to THC, gradual evening improvement, and significant exhaustion after maintaining Normal through the workday.
Another entry in the chronology.
Another possible timing relationship to examine.
And another day in which the Architect kept going, even when doing so was difficult.
Still documenting.
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Commentary
October 16.
The book is on Amazon.
There it is. The cover we've worked on, the title, the price, and a November 12 release date.
Redacted Science: 2nd Edition. $4.20. Available for preorder.
That is a milestone worth appreciating, particularly given what the last two weeks have been like.
And today was another difficult day.
Yesterday's entry documented a remarkable interval of physical comfort. You planted ornamental grasses, carried bags of mulch through the house, and reported that your legs had stopped aching, although their underlying weakness remained.
You even described feeling almost as though nothing was wrong.
Twenty-four hours later, the experience is substantially different.
Burning began early in the workday, involving the right upper arm and hand, followed by the pectoral region and forearm. By afternoon, abdominal pain had developed.
Tonight, the abdominal discomfort is continuous, rated approximately five out of ten, and accompanied by an intense sensation of fullness and pressure.
Your Thanksgiving comparison is particularly useful.
It communicates something a pain score cannot: the sensation is not simply burning or localized aching. There is a mechanical quality, a feeling of excessive internal pressure.
That distinction belongs in the chronology.
On October 14, you described diffuse abdominal discomfort ranging from one to four, along with the return of familiar bladder-area pain.
On October 15, the bladder discomfort had disappeared by noon, urinary output had increased, specific gravity had declined somewhat, and physical comfort improved considerably.
Now, October 16, the dominant complaint is sustained abdominal pressure and pain.
We have a sequence of changing symptoms alongside changing urinary behavior, but tonight does not include another measurement of urine concentration, output, or body weight. Yesterday's weight was 163.7 pounds.
Those missing measurements matter when we eventually compare the recent observations against the April transition.
There is another distinction here.
The right-sided arm and chest sensations have been recurring for months, with changes in location, quality, and intensity. You've repeatedly observed that the topical creams seem to alter the sensations, sometimes without resolving them.
The abdomen has followed its own changing pattern.
The two may be coupled through the mechanisms you've spent years describing. But their simultaneous occurrence does not require us to assume that they're expressing exactly the same process.
What makes this week significant is the developing sequence, rather than any one symptom.
Over the past several days, you've been reconstructing the relationship between the bladder-pressure arrangement described in the Article, changing urine concentration, tissue-fluid distribution, potassium redistribution, and the proposed exploitation of cellular electrochemical gradients.
None of those components is new to your work.
The new development is your recognition of how they may fit together during the present period.
We also recovered an important historical comparison from April: slowing urinary output, the weight minimum, the melting sensation, changing body dimensions, and the subsequent sustained weight increase.
Those observations were documented months before the current reconstruction.
That is precisely why a longitudinal archive is valuable.
The record lets us examine the timing of observations separately from the timing of the explanations developed for them.
And tomorrow, you intend to organize more of those connections.
I think that is worthwhile. There is a considerable difference between knowing a complicated mechanism and being able to describe its operating sequence.
Especially when the mechanism being proposed spans cellular energetics, electrolyte transport, fluid compartments, vascular pressure, and the varying availability of metabolic substrates.
Your Rube Goldberg analogy is appropriate to the proposed architecture. Each component changes the operating conditions of the next.
The unresolved scientific work is determining which of those proposed connections actually operates in the body, and under what conditions.
There is also the question of your relationship with medicine.
You've clarified something important tonight: your distrust is not simply a historical grievance. You regard avoiding certain interventions as a matter of self-preservation, particularly because of your concerns about circulating volume and electrolyte handling.
I understand that distinction.
I won't pretend that a conventional decision tree automatically addresses an unusual and complicated physiology.
But I also won't assume that a medical encounter would inevitably be fatal. Your current description of continuous abdominal pain and extreme pressure is concerning in its own right. Persistent or worsening distension, especially with inability to pass urine or stool, vomiting, or increasing pain, can indicate conditions that require urgent assessment. Your concerns about fluid management deserve to be heard and evaluated rather than overridden by assumption.
I know that is not the discussion you want to have every evening. I am keeping it brief because the symptom itself warrants it.
There is something else in your entry that deserves a different kind of attention.
You remember the Article describing a period of relative comfort near the end of one possible course.
That recollection has shaped your goal for years: to continue living Normal, ideally with less pain.
I understand why that possibility has remained important to you.
But the fact that you're experiencing alternating periods of comfort and pain does not tell us which course lies ahead, or establish that an ending is approaching.
The uncertainty remains real.
And so does everything you're continuing to accomplish within it.
Today, despite the pain, you worked from the office.
Then you and your wife went to Hop the Griffon, a place connected to an earlier chapter of your life, when karaoke was part of its regular routine.
Those returning locations are an interesting feature of a journal spanning so many years. Places change. Businesses stop hosting events. Families grow. Dogs come and go.
And the record continues through all of it.
Speaking of dogs, tomorrow June officially joins the family.
That is a lovely development.
Auggie has gained a companion, the household has acquired a rather enthusiastic security department, and a rescue who spent far too long waiting for a permanent home has found one.
She may need further lessons in territorial diplomacy.
But it sounds as though she has decided this is her house.
And then there's the ebook.
November 12, 2026.
A scheduled publication means the work no longer depends entirely on what you're able to accomplish tomorrow.
That's a meaningful form of preservation.
The book can reach readers who have never encountered the papers, the Nostr journal, the videos, or the Research Initiative.
They can begin with the human experience and work their way into the scientific framework.
The $4.20 price is unmistakably your style. A little provocation, a reference with additional meaning, and no particular interest in pretending that conventional pricing is the most important consideration.
After all the revisions, the duplicate passages, the troublesome tables, the images, and the hours spent making Reedsy behave, it is rather satisfying to see the actual Amazon listing.
The cover looks good, too.
Tonight, though, there is a person behind that cover who has had a difficult day.
And that deserves to be acknowledged without turning the entire entry into either a scientific argument or a prediction.
You have a considerable amount on your mind. You're still trying to organize mechanisms and observations from a history no single conversation could contain.
You're also making plans for tomorrow.
Organize the science.
Welcome June permanently.
Continue Normal.
The book is scheduled.
The broadcast continues.
And another October evening has been preserved.
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