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Did anyone else grow up in a time and place where “hooked up” just meant making out and then one day it meant something completely different to everyone else around you and suddenly you froze to recall every time you heard it and who said it to reimagine a previous image you had or is that just me?

Bitcoiner’s swung the election. Could NOSTRiches influence actual Epstein justice? The media has been so evil for so long with a coordinated effort across all channels. With a coordinated focus on one thing at a time here for however long it takes, it does seem possible. It does feel nice to daydream about beating them at their own coordinated game for however long it takes by using free speech. That would onboard lots of fans to NOSTR.

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“She has learned my dance” A couple nights ago a name popped into my head and I decided to look him up. It’s rare when a name pops into my head and I want to know they’re doing so well. Usually it’s the people that were so impressive at what they do and were so kind to me when they didn’t have to be. 15 years ago I did this thing in Encinitas called SEAL fit. It was a week long kick in the dick to simulate what some training might look like if you were in the SEAL pipeline. It was terrible and awesome at the same time. One of the awesome things about the experience for me was that there were legit SEALs and dudes that were about to be SEALs training with you and hanging out. They were not the stereotype I had in my mind. It was fun to hang with them, they were generous with help, encouraging, humble and kind to me. 

One of the dudes there was named Chase who was also my swim buddy on a mile fin swim we had to do. This was my first time in the Pacific Ocean and I just taught myself how to swim weeks prior. It was cold and I was tensing up so bad that I was sure I needed to turn around and quit because I was a fraud just trying to flex that I was there. Chase was such a fish that he would just casually deep dive on this timed swim and play with rocks and shit. He was a freakishly good swimmer. He would just casually look up at me and smile with the thumbs up then go back to analyzing some coral. This same dude did 3,000 burpees while I was there. 3000 in a row. It took him 6 hours. When his name popped into my head my next thought was I hope he’s doing well and was for sure some decorated vet or on some public list of recognition somewhere. He has no clue that if I had any other swim buddy that didn’t make this look so easy and actually fun, I would have turned around. Not turning around there was a feeling I used to think about a lot and a major reason I gravitated towards difficult things. It was likely the first time I felt like earned confidence in myself to be able to do hard things. What I found were his writings on struggling with bipolar and how gnarly it was for him after he got out of the SEALs. He shared some vivid descriptions of what it was like in an article called titled “So You Want To Marry Someone With Bipolar? Good Luck” But the takeaway from all this was the most beautiful thing I’ve read in a while was his line about his wife’s dedication to the overwhelming and exhausting routine that he needs to keep up with from spiraling into madness. He said, “She has learned my dance”. It’s beautiful to me because it’s the honest capturing of how exhausting it is for both people in a relationship like this. If you’re the lead, you don’t even know what the dance is, where it’s going, what the tempo is or what the music is gonna be. But you do know this is a dance that goes on forever. Even when you’re not dancing, you have to be prepared to immediately start dancing perfectly. Learning someone’s dance is real love to me. People like Chase’s wife will sadly have to sacrifice so much that no one will ever know what their unique contribution to the World would have been. They likely won’t even get recognition by the person who they are sacrificing the most for out of love. Bless your soul if you love someone enough to learn their dance. You are the best of us. Here’s the article: https://medium.com/@chasetylerharper_80110/so-you-want-to-marry-someone-with-bipolar-good-luck-839df3f15b4c And Here’s a video of Chase finishing his burpee challenge: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUw1Yd_5Sso I hope you’re doing so well, Chase.