was just driving home from the grocery store and had such a smile on my face to simply sit in how much i have nothing to bring to any table whatsoever and no one on earth deserves to fuck me or ever have the satisfaction of me agreeing to marry them like not even for world peace across the entire planet would i do that shit the world does not deserve and that honestly feels great

"dont give that man so much power over you" who is that for? ya think? the person hurting? or the man just like dissociate from that shit repress that shit remain unphased dont even let it touch you let that man rest easy that this wasnt even a blip he's insignificant the injury was insignificant it is all insignificant actually

everyone has their own individual shit they wont do i cant in some roundabout way be like oh damn! wow! the bag i never expected out of all this heartbreak wowwwwwwww who knew my heartbreak poems would touch people and now i have some rent money like i said: i would eat a gun first

i appreciate this so deeply as in: i am so happy for them i love that and this, will never be me because: i literally refuse to reward the world for bad behavior and i refuse to take a dime from shit in some backwards serendipity who knew way as in: oh yea without that heartbreak i wouldnt have discovered i actually can make it as a poet thanks heartbreak! no dude i'll eat a gun first