i have a cold. it was given to me by the relatives we had stay with us recently; the family that makes me feel more solid in my decisions and my life and my children and my husband. it has me thinking about the spiritual symbolism behind being sick. we drink raw milk., we do not believe in recycling plastic., we are not vaccinated., we believe red meat and fat are healthy and sustaining on salads is not., we are vehemently against circumscision... and we only share some of these views with our family because every one is a battle and we can only fight on so many fronts and because i do not want to offend the peaceful space we share between those stances. but on the backside of time spent together i always end up sick. a sore throat, a cough, sinus pressure... an injured throat chakra and a blocked third eye. i do not have a solution other than awareness. i will grow beyond this paradigm. i will live peacefully in my self and in my views and will be able to stand in them undisturbed no matter the response of others, no matter their relation to me, and in a way that does not invite a fight... in a manner that simply is. i am closer all the time. i am more my self today than ever. and have been trending beautiful. so. i am aware. i am awakening. and i am grateful for the lessons i learn, if not the colds that come with them.

i think we should do away with the question, "how did you sleep?"

spending time with family i disagree with makes me feel really solid about my life choices.

been thinking for weeks about my top music. i for now decided on electric guest mac miller phantogram portugal. the man tv on the radio and because they did not seem to fit, i separated my piano picks. ahmad jamal chopin dave brubeck debussy joep beving

live free or die.