I took an unassisted walk outside today 😌

Is there like a support group for people who experience miracles? Everything around me feels so surreal. I see my old things and it’s like I don’t recognize them but they make me sad. It’s a very strange feeling. Maybe it’s just pregnancy hormones lol

It’s the first morning that I haven’t cried, so that’s progress. I can also now move slowly without a walker, just a bit hunched over still. Getting me up is the hard part. My baby bump looks metal as hell. Literally. There are over 40 staples from my sternum to my pelvis. Shoutout to my incredible husband, @WalkerAmerica, who has been by my side throughout this nightmare. I truly could not handle this without him. In sickness and in health, boy did he prove it, and I am so grateful for that man. I’m really hoping the worst part is over. I need to believe that. And I’m praying for a healthy and smooth delivery in August. Gonna be a long road, fam. But I hope in a couple years I’ll be dancing in an orange wig again 🧡

I’m going home 🥹

Hi fam. Thank you for all the love and prayers 🧡 it’s truly a miracle the baby and I are alive right now and I’m so grateful to my husband and medical team for making that happen. I’m in an enormous amount of pain and honestly having a hard time staying positive. I have an intense few months ahead of me with a healing and growing belly, and then delivery and whatever comes with that, and I just gotta say it, I’m scared. Scared, grateful, scarred, blessed. Everyone keeps telling me how tough I am but I don’t feel that way right now. Anyway, the only way forward is through and I just wanted to let you guys know how much your messages and well wishes have meant to me during this insane time in my life. So much love to all of you, this too shall pass 🧡

17 weeks pregnant with internal bleeding and an emergency splenectomy. In a lot of pain. Need some humor. But not too funny because I don’t want to laugh too hard.

I’m eating ice cream to see if the baby will kick. Not because I want ice cream. Ewww ice creammm

I’ve never in my life seen someone drink a Dr. Pepper. Something fishy there.

I shouldn’t have sugar before bed. But I want sugar before bed.

If I have one more mouth click on the word “looked” I might jump out a window!!!!!!!!

I love how my washing machine sings a happy little tune no matter what mood I’m in.

I haven’t pranked anyone in years because I’m so damn tired. But…I used to be quite the prankster.

You know when you bump into something and you’re like “that’s gonna leave a mark” but when the mark comes you’re like

this whole wait until food cools down before putting it in the fridge 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨

Back in the studio with Girl Scout cookies as my energy source

SPENT MY BDAY AT THE DMV HBD TO ME

I need a SANDWICH!!!!!!!!

I’ve started trying this deep sleep music but my dumb brain keeps trying to guess what note is next instead of relaxing like it’s some game and I get a prize if I’m right It is fun being right tho because these melodies are so random GOT EM

I put on a book about atomic physics last night to try and fall asleep but then accidentally found it interesting 😭😭😭

the insomnia and quitting caffeine all makes sense now 😏 ugh I’ve wanted to note so many of my experiences the last few weeks. now you finally get to see Carla UNHINGED!!!!