someone joked that their hobby is to kill time, so i joked they must go to bars a lot then, and i was correct. arguably, going to a bar, especially if it's the same group of people every time, is a kind of hobby. like Cheers the TV show. some people do that without the alcohol. dad is retired and he likes to just sit at a table they put out at the local shopping centre and wait for people he knows to pass by to strike up a conversation. he has enough acquaintances that there's a pretty good chance that someone he knows is going to pass through there.

i was asking about hobbies to meet new friends and someone proposed fishing. i have never heard of a fishing club before... that's the kind of thing that you typically do alone... and it's 99% guys.

it's funny just how sensitive people are to the WAY you say stuff.

i went to group therapy for a little while, but there was something about it that bothered me. it's hard to place a finger on it. it bored me a bit maybe? the others had problems but they weren't very serious. child's play compared to what i've seen people post on here. mostly just common insecurities and relationship problems.

i'm working on the text for a poster i want to hang up in my neighbourhood. i'm offering an excuse to talk.

made a snack for myself

what's the typical show-up rate for something like a Meetup or Facebook event? 10%? i'm thinking maybe i should start something and build a list of interested people and only schedule one once it hits critical mass.

the American media industry is almost too good at what it does. every medium over there tries to mesmerise you and suspend your disbelief. it hits you with striking effects and plays at your heartstrings. propaganda techniques used in the service of making money. that can't possibly be healthy for people.

funny realisation: if i had a good network full of people to interact with, i wouldn't really want a job at all, except to pay the bills. it would be kind of handy to have a job where you can stay in touch with people throughout the day. i get so bored when there's no one to talk to that i start talking to myself instead.

it's funny how your sense of self is so often shaped by your life circumstances. it was useful for me to believe i was an introvert who didn't need friends and was happy to sit at a computer all day. but i was just a smart kid that got bullied due to social development delays who found refuge in the machines and books that dad kept in his house. and it made sense to believe that i was a writer because i'm a very active social media poster who types a lot. but i really just like to have conversations with friends. most of my hobbies emerged out of a subconscious desire to have more friends and life success. it's like when people play in a band to get girls, except i didn't have the self-awareness to see that. i like my hobbies but they're very "been there done that" for me now. the idea that i was a musician was much in the same vein. as with my other hobbies, there was of course a natural interest there, but i lost motivation again when it didn't make me any money or friends. people who have a genuine passion for their work don't quit just because no one cares. they love doing it too much to stop. and i can't recall having such an enduring passion for anything. if i have a passion, it's communication in all its forms, i think. pretty vague and not terribly helpful when you're trying to decide on a new career path.

it says something about me that the first thing i wanted to use a computer for as a kid was to type with people far away in real time. i still want to use computers for that. i mean, what i really want out of a chat program is for it to behave more like you're two teletype or telegraph operators and you're having a conversation.

people who expect chat to be real-time are usually people who hate to be kept waiting and who immerse themselves in the other person fully for a while. like you would in a face-to-face conversation. the other type of person uses chat more like a messaging service. writing telegrams instead of being present for the conversation. Snapchat is very much designed around being present and talking in real-time. when the other person checks the chat window, you get notified, so you know they're there. it resembles real-life interaction a bit more.

someone just blocked me over a misunderstanding. i left to go shopping for food but didn't respond to her last message, which was political. then, after a while, she said "i see that i struck a nerve." and soon after "i'm out." and then i was unable to send messages anymore. this is one problem with online platforms. can't clear up any misunderstandings after a block has happened.

someone just blocked me over a misunderstanding. i left to go shopping but didn't respond to her last message, which was political.

roting med ord... det jeg mente å si var "her var det mye flasker å pante" men så kom det "her var det mye fanter å plaske"