anybody ever have the experience that being merely around a certain person just calms you down?

when i'm feeling low, i think about my life. looking to the past, i see a bunch of stuff i didn't get to experience at the ages most people experienced them at. it can largely be chalked up to being neurodiverse. looking to the near future, i see uncertainty about my prospects for life satisfaction, and certainty about old age and death. you might call it a mid-life crisis, but i think it hits a little stronger because my life has been so lacking in job stability, friendships and intimacy. having a couple of friends and other forms of aid makes up for it somewhat, but not late at night when it's just me here. it's very tempting to reach for a beer at moments like that. it's just a plain unhappy feeling and there are clear reasons for it. "this is not what i wanted."

1. i bought Tinder Gold. this means i can see everyone who swiped right on me, but 2. hardly a soul is doing it, so 3. unless they start swiping right, my right swipes do nothing, so 4. what is the point of doing this exactly?

engurish! 😤

girl briefly i dated who wasn't ready for a relationship and is now an online friend because she had to leave town: *went on dating sites, got 300 likes, but hardly anyone replied to chat* me: *went on dating sites, hardly got any likes* end result: kind of the same, really, except she got more false positives. your average guy swipes right first and takes a closer look later. machine gun strategy. throw things at the wall and see what sticks.

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i ordered a Hiroshima at the pizzeria and this is what they gave me

#TerribleMaps

i think if you're going to argue for a world without borders, you might want to take the "we can be better than our nature" approach to it

i don't get much exercise but living in a city without a car does involve a bit of walking and lifting, and i always take the stairs to my third-floor apartment instead of the elevator. it probably wouldn't hurt if i had more excuses for moving around though. imagine staying in shape just from your daily working and living.

people who live in Oslo legitimately do this, at least for smaller furniture - if it's too big, you just get home delivery. there is parking outside of most IKEAs but i can see how you could do without that.

my monitor, suddenly, out of the blue "AMD FreeSync Enabled" wait, i don't even know if that was enabled before...

they have dug up dirt on the husband of the former prime minister and current leader of the conservative party - Erna Solberg. there is suspicion of insider trading - that he used his marriage with Solberg to make money in the stock market - and there is also evidence that suggests that he attempted to conceal it. Solberg's story appears to be changing over time. this only emerged after the municipal elections. we like to say that Norway doesn't have corruption, but it's more accurate to say that it has a little bit of it. there is definitely a lot of cronyism/nepotism, but nobody used to care about that. it was excused because the country is small and connected. it's hard to make friends in Norway, because people rely on their existing networks so much, so that's basically a part of the culture here.

that project i fixed this weekend is the first piece of actual paid work i've done in a while. 3 hours and after that, i needed a nap.

it looks like my follower count has plateaued.

i'm glad it's Tuesday, because Monday was awful

at this rate, i'll get a date quicker if i make my OWN damned dating site.

i remember a song but i don't know the name.

for the moment, i think i need a girlfriend. can i explain why? not really.

if she's a bit fat, this merely means her words will carry more weight in a discussion