PENTHOUSE - MARCH / APRIL 2019
Gather around, while I show you one of my most prized possessions. I got this when I was a newbie in selling nudes online. This was maybe the first year of moving out of my parents house, I was horny, I got paid to be horny (and still do!) — then my first BIG deposit hit.
It wasn’t life changing, but my wishlist at the time was covered with change left over. This was the same that paid one of my FAVORITE VIBRATORS OF ALL TIME (the Nora! *chef’s kiss* highly recommended if you love your clit. I had other dildos included but they were just the standard Amazon toys. I was victorious.
As an introvert, my celebratory days are often spent alone. I like being selfish.
It was a solo beach day, it wasn’t too far from a that nameless little shop with curtains. The one where even on the busiest days, nobody likes to loiter around.
Hell yeah.
Me, alone, 147.32 cm - NEEDED to go in the sex shop. I mean…isn’t that my right? I’m a professional brat.
I wasn’t sure what to buy at first while I browsed. The DVD section looks like it was stuck in the early 2000s. Toys? Already have them….
I wasn’t leaving empty handed. This is a historical moment. A girls first time in the sex store. A WOMAN’S first time leaving a sex store. I need a souvenir.
Then I saw her. Miss Mar/April 2019.
I think I was the first customer who actually stood to read every subtitle on the magazine covers to compare which would have better articles. I wanted to know more about this industry. What we do, what we talk about, who is willing to market alongside us.
I tore that baby open the moment I got back home. I flung myself onto the lumpy living room futon and read this like it was sacred text.
To save you time, I won’t got over every detail, but just share my favorite pieces. The spread.
Oh man. Obsessed would be an understatement. What in my mind had me convinced that I could rent out a roller rink and recreate this…
But this was just everything. AND she had short hair?! I spent most of Highschool with a pixie haircut, always paired with a band t shirt. I knew people saw it as masculine — personally I think it’s very chic, very *Audrey Hepburn*
So seeing Jay Marie featured here rocked my world. A monumental win.
I read every article, and then reread from the start including the ads. Some of my notepads would have websites and budget calculations for how I — newbie Cam girl — could buy an advertisement on Penthouse magazine just for the ability to say I was Penthouse. Although I wouldn’t turn my nose away at an offer for Playboy, or Hustler (my phone line is still open if any executives are reading!)
Maybe I could be the girl on the back of MyFreeCam.com
That being said, I quite like where I am now. I’ve learned a lot, I’m not a household name but I’m not sure if I want to be. I like making nsfw content and having control of the creative direction. As pretentious as it sounds.
I’ve done an AI western nudes photoset, audios, fetish videos, solo masturbation and more. I don’t think I would have been able to explore as much as I have if I were tied to someone else’s company.
It’s great looking back on this, a piece of media that once blew my mind on what the industry had to offer. Now the question isn’t “what is there?”
— it’s “what’s next?”
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