You guys are too fucking boring to trigger me I guess I’ll go to sleep frfr.

The feminine urge to just unleash the magical psychopath within. I started writing about my childhood trauma wanted to throw up. I am no victim and I don’t need to rehash it. GN Nostr

Dinner prep is a routine. It varies but today it was a stop at local farmer’s market. There is an outdoor farmer’s market setup in different parts of town almost every day of the week. I purchased ribeye and New York steaks, antibiotic free, grass-fed beef from Chris the local rancher and it’s easy to determine what’s fresh and in season in my area because I can just talk to the farmers. I wash and then put the asparagus and sage in water lest it wilts. The sourdough baguette is leftover but it’s also from a local baker. About Sage, this is something I’ve grown up around we have native white sage all around my area. I see it frequently both hiking and planted in gardens. White sage is the most medicinal but it’s a bit too astringent for cooking. Also never use tinctures or essential oils when it comes to sages they are toxic in that form. Fresh is best. The three types of sage are white which I just spoke of, black sage which is excellent in a foot soak to relieve pain in your entire body, and purple sage. Culinary sage which you see here is the third type of sage called purple sage even though this sample doesn’t look purple. All sages are useful and have roughly the same properties they are antiseptic, anti anxiety, and can also be used as a decongestant.

#runstr Earlier than usual one of the hottest days of the year in my parts. I usually wait for it to cool off. Sweating buckets like I’m in a sauna. LFG

GM In high school I used to do crazy things, reckless things…just to feel something. Maybe it’s because I had a traumatic beginning. I know I’m not the only one that has had very dramatic and traumatic experiences from a very young age (maybe I’ll get into that someday) but I know exactly no one that has had it quite like me. Then at a very young age (college age) I became very serious. Like way more than my peers. I got married very young (I met my husband at 19 years old) and built a very stable life. I became an executive (the youngest by far at my firm) and managed thousands of people and built the business I was working for before they were acquired by larger company and taken public. I was chosen by my company and relocated to Texas from California and given a blank check (by myself) to fill an office building with the infrastructure to run the entire business in that state. A 20 story office building where the top floor was my office and hired every employee by myself including the entire management team (I was in my early 20’s.) I never stopped to think this was unusual, I just kept going. Then at some point after being cheated on twice, I left everything. My house which by all accounts was a mansion full of fancy stuff, my life, with only a backpack. My husband was so controlling over me he never would have allowed me to leave. So I took the bare necessities in one backpack, drove to the airport, and bought a plane ticket in cash at the counter and flew back to my home in California where I piece by piece rebuilt my life from the ground up. That’s all for now. I’m not sure why I’m sharing this but you guys seem to like it when I share my candid truth. Let me know if you want to hear more.

#runstr

- It’s not your job to humble me. I’m actually quite humble I try not to flex everything I have or display everything I’m involved in that might be used to impress others. I’m pretty restrained although I’ve also been pretty open. - I’m a real woman, a mother, I have a career that I take pretty seriously. - I’m middle aged (in my mid 40’s) so what. I don’t need the passive aggressive or the straight aggressive insults (If you think you’re slick just know that I’ve seen the comments and the group slander and snickering. Whore, horny divorcee, statist, fake, AI, a man, a thousand other nasty insults and rude assumptions that have been hurled at me from every direction.) The most surprising was the reaction to recommending a book, my God makes me never want to do that again. Yes I saw it all. I don’t experience such hate in the real world. There is no logical reason to tear down women. (Children murderers excluded go ahead and shoot those evil bitches in the head I have no sympathy/empathy for them. ) I’m generous with zaps, it’s a minuscule fraction of what I’ve been able to build and I was coming from the intention of supporting the growth of Nostr although I’ve been insulted for that too. Women are not all emotional basket cases and we’re not the enemy. We actually need more strength and support but I would never expect that from anon nsecs although it has gotten to me at times. I may shed a single tear and I kindly request that you do not play with me. I am always up for a debate but it seems a lot of you just want a sounding board and to posture as having some kind of importance to get attention for your empty brainwashed opinions.

You guys are exhausting me. I’m going to give it a rest now but maybe I have something to say about men’s behavior because I built a good one. One more pic because he’s so damn handsome.

No problem Izzy that’s just my clean folded laundry. My bad, it’s her couch I just vacuum it everyday and have it professionally cleaned quarterly. Cats really psyop’d humans didn’t they? Smarties. GN Nostr

My son. My Nostr notes, I want at least one pic of him on here.

Nostr was fucking weird today. GN

GM Hurricanes in the Pacific are kinda lit TBH