Rae

Ease is not the eradication of difficulty or challenge. It is a peaceful, courageous and at times exhilarating relationship with all of life, that emerges in the absence of self condemnation and excessively negative meaning making. Ease is what exists when you let the poor self concept that makes everything a million times fucking harder go. #spirituality #personalpower #spiritualnostr #feminineleadership

I caught my reflection in the window of my car and I liked it. So I took a photo. I am running less and less inflammation because I am running less and less mind. I’m growing vegetables, breathing in the sunlight, and swimming and steaming and lifting weights a few times a week. I’m drinking litres of bone broth. Cooking good food. Taking my b and d vitamins. Drinking my minerals. I am loved so very, very, very well. I’m reading my poetry aloud and writing every day. I am attuning to a rhythm that is allowing me to expand at a pace that is sustained and regenerating, after years of trying to race ahead at the expense of myself. I am coming into genuine relationship and reverence for the depth and breadth of my medicine after a long time of harbouring a lack of value. I wake up at 8ish and lie in until half 9 meditating and tuning into my energy. I’m sleeping more and more deeply. I commune with the Earth, the Sun and the Rose daily. I breathe slowly. My womb is soft and rooted. I can feel my own heart. I’m grateful. #introductions #GM #hellonostr #nostr

It really gets my goat when you see women in the gym using the leg machines while scrolling their phone at the same time. You never see blokes doing it because they are actually making an effort lol If a lift feels so easy you can chill on your phone, you ain't getting those gains girl. 🤣

Life is so much sexier without perfectionism running the show. Literally, so much more abundant in SEX. The life force bound up under the vice grip of gotta get it right 1000000% of the time is now running freely. And it saturates every cell. It doesn't just transform sex itself. The current of eros expands into everything like sudden splashes of watercolour bleeding out of black ink outlines. It is the energy that animates you with every breath. It is the blossoming expanse in your womb as you let go even more deeply. It is the flow of inspiration and the impulse to create. It is the natural, shimmering channel through which you receive. And it is sexy as fuck.

If you err on the perfectionistic side If you feel a pang of dread when you pull The Tower card (lolll) If you’re intuitive AF but have been known to do life with a large side of analysis paralysis If you’re sensitive and magical If you know your soul path + work is calling you deeper but you’re prone to overthinking it If you want to have more energetic potency and influence over the course of your life If you long to EMPTY out of yourself ...and, I mean, if you just wanna fucking relax a bit more? This is your final invitation to join us in deep immersion for SURRENDER / CONTROL tomorrow. I’m offering this because I never knew how to let go. Ever. I remember my teacher saying to me a while back: You are such a diligent practitioner Rae, but sometimes you just need to let go. I could barely hear her at the time and now I’m like: Oh. Fuck. Yeah. Letting go, surrendering, b e i n g - is a profound blueprint, and one that for most people, didn't download fully. Most people don’t now how to literally exist, without some form of performance and force CONSTANTLY running. Letting go - of that programming AND in the deepest sense of surrendering yourself fully to God - is a literal master key. Being able to tune to the frequency of surrender of the let go of NO CONTROL is where the directives from God drop in is where your intuition / soul can be clearly heard is where opportunities flow to you. If you have a strong spiritual and creative calling if you know you’re here for M O R E You need that key. It is part of your personal mission to uncover it. I can’t give you the key. It lives inside you. But I vehemently believe in the power of embodied transmission. In the way that a field alchemises and transforms when you intentionally step into it. We start at 1pm UK tomorrow (Sunday 30th) and you have basically right up until that time to get yourself involved if you know it’s calling you. A recording is included. Message me if you have any questions or wanna share anything. Full details + booking here: https://raedwyer.thrivecart.com/surrendercontrol/ ps. …and if the event wasn’t for you? I hope you enjoyed the transmissions. I hope they landed something for you. What I write on the lead up to offerings and events is a natural and joyful extension of what moves through me as I do life, and it is a pleasure and privilege to share in that, regardless of whether or not you buy something. xo

OH I HAVE ONE MORE QUESTION: when I zap people it's set to 42 sats + an "onwards" sentiment. Can I change that? How do I zap more / alter the accompanying comment? #asknostr #askprimal

Nostr I have some questions! First off, I'm noticing certain accounts that appear to be following, unfollowing and then refollowing my account in a really spammy and honestly slightly unhinged way so I'm wondering if this is actually a notification glitch with the app? Secondly - I'm wondering if anyone can recommend active hashtags for widening the reach of my work, both on a general and topic-specific level. For example #asknostr and #introductions have been great for some initial connecting and getting settled into the space. Are there any other generalised hashtags that are helpful to use? More specifically, I wanna connect with spiritual path walkers, medicine women (+ men), and people who're unwinding hustle culture and perfectionism. Does anyone have any knowledge on active and widely used hashtags that fit roughly into this bracket? I'm obvi gonna have a nose at various hashtags feeds but if I can get that question answered without doing loads of trawling I'd be grateful 😁 THANK YOU IN ADVANCE 🌹 #askprimal #asknostr #introductions

The more you attune to the frequency of truth, the more you realise that the truth always feels good.  And the more you learn to discern the difference between  True good vs False sense of security good or temporary hit of validation good or addictive dopamine fix good or relief from ducking out on facing something hard but transformative good The truth is often inconvenient. Sometimes it is utterly devastating. But when it is embraced, it's always feels good.  Crystal clear water running through your body good.  #spirituality #truth #unconditionallove #spiritualawakening

A chance convo I had this week lead me to remember that before becoming self employed in my mid twenties, I had been sacked from not one, but TWO jobs. I felt a strange but sweet pang of pride at my unemployability. It has literally been impossible for me to be an employee. I’m not proud of what led me to being sacked. I behaved badly lol. And I should have been sacked from a third job really, because I showed up to it still high on drugs, having snorted the last line in the baggy at 5am that morning, more often than I’d like to admit. In fact I’m pretty sure I called my manager by accident once thinking he was a drug dealer and somehow I kept that job. The bloke was an angel from heaven. But I do feel some pride or perhaps it is love, for the version of me that was a total train wreck, because she ultimately ensured I never slotted myself into a life I would have been grossly unhappy inside of. Entrepreneurship has been the unravelling of my fucking life. Had to face some stuff that has had some seriously high security alarm systems built up around it. Really deep set pre-verbal imprints that most people don’t even graze the top of in their lifetime. Some really tricky money stuff. Facing fear after fear after fear. Dimensional contracts. Generational curses. Spiritual awakening as an extension of entrepreneurship is expert level game play and asks everything of you. Everything. And it has been such a privilege to go through that ringer. To know that I won’t get to my death bed and realise that I spent a huge portion of my life doing stuff that I hated. To be able to spend my time doing things that I love - writing, facilitating, cooking and gardening. To know that I can stay in the game, with myself, no matter what - and that what I am destined for is literally inevitable from that place of staying. So yeah, all to say, I’m glad I was a dick in my twenties.

WHEN ENEMY PROGRAMMING REALISES IT'S LOSING One of the last, panicked ways that enemy programming will attempt to keep you out of your zone of genius, is by convincing you that you’ll never be free of it. One of the final frantic scrambles it will make to get you to disqualify yourself from the kingdom, is to whisper that it will always get you in the end. That there will always be another way that your mind will manage to trick you. Because, what happens when you stop flinching? When you become unwavering? When you live from a cellular knowing that God is always bigger? When you decide to rest in the recognition of a grace that exists, infinitely, beyond every single mental wall you could possibly ever hit? It is game fucking over for everything that ever fed on your fear. Because every single attempt made to get you to slink back into your small-self box will be met by a nervous system that can surrender into the God-space beyond it. Every single evil eye will be stared down and snuffed out by a soul that remembers. Your system will be permanently set to: Not today satan. I’ve watched people step into this location. Compulsions evaporating mid-sentence. Obsessive loops collapsing in on themselves. Old trauma cycles short-circuiting and literally forgetting how to fire. Innate brilliance re-enlivening faces that looked haunted. Abundance flowing into the space that control once gripped shut. Love overflowing, doors flinging open and timelines bursting into being because the recipient finally said yes to the thing that is bigger. Once grace enters your body, once it envelops and dissolves every single dividing line that evil ever attempted to draw between you and your Source, there is no more forgetting. No more taking yourself out at the threshold of your next level. No more selling yourself short and not giving it your all. No more settling for scraps. No more denying yourself the fullness of what is meant for you because your protective mechanisms outweighed the truth. There is only your divine inheritance. There is only your innate brilliance. There is only the love of your life, the creations of your soul and you having the absolute time of all of your lifetimes. There is only God, flowing through your body, uninterrupted and unopposed. Because you locked in, fully, the truth that is always bigger. - I'm hosting an event called SURRENDER / CONTROL this Sunday. Online immersion + recording Details + book your space via https://raedwyer.thrivecart.com/surrendercontrol/ #spiritualawakening #surrendercontrol #surrender #spiriruality #faith #faithingod #spiritualcoach

Know something: Your creative calling and spiritual mission is asking you to become so much bigger than you could possibly even begin to conceive of in this moment. That's why you only have the very next step. That is why it is all you will ever have. Your mind would fucking explode into mush if it had an advance forecast of the enormity of your true size and the size of the life that is gonna meet you as you rise. It's not a place that your mind can go. And if you don't go anyway? If you don't go all in on a life where you only ever have the very next step? Do I need to tell you? Do you need another lifetime of this? Do you want another lifetime of this? Let go of control. Let go of how you think you'll be perceived. Let go of who you think you are. Let go of the future. Let go of the past. And take the next step. #spiritiualmission #introductions #GM #spiritualawakening

She said: “If that happens, I am scared of what my mind is going to do.” If you could move through the world without a single doubt in your ability to not only be with, but alchemise the hot as fuuccckkk heat of your worst case scenario, how would you be showing up? How would you be showing up if you weren’t concerned about what your mind would do in the event of x or y? How would you be showing up if you were no longer preoccupied with constantly managing the constriction in your body, from all of that life force being bottle necked by the grip of your mind? What would you be creating if you trusted the heat? If you knew it was taking you deeper and deeper into the mind blowing levels of intimacy, expansion and freedom that you say you want? I don’t care that you know these things are true intellectually. The point is that it remains intellectual. It doesn’t click in the body because you say: “I know! I know this!” And that is the way that your mind, in self-preservation mode deflects the truth and stops the gnosis from penetrating the heart and hitting the womb. That is your mind closing the opening where you can receive the source code Where your state of being actually changes And the penny properly drops: That your peace has nothing to do with anything other than you and God. The kind of peace where stuff that used to send you spinning is met, rooted and quiet. Where emotional debris that used to tear through you, dissolves gently and sometimes even joyfully?! The kind of peace that becomes a consistent baseline. Where you finally give yourself over to the current that is transforming you into a vessel made for endless grace, every time you get ghosted or a relationship ruptures or something doesn’t sell or an application isn’t accepted or a proposal doesn’t land or the boiler explodes or you crash your car. Every time you perceive a rejection every time you’re afraid every time you put yourself out there with no guarantee that you’ll be met every time there’s a curve ball that’s outside of your c o n t r o l Peace is yours when you give up the game. Peace is yours when you quit bargaining with life. Peace is yours when surrender stops being an idealistic concept laden with conditions, and becomes a natural extension of your agreement to be u n c o n d i t i o n a l I'm holding an online immersion this Sunday called s u r r e n d e r / c o n t r o l I hadn't initially planned to intro my work in here just yet, but if you fancy it - the invite is open. Details + booking here: https://raedwyer.thrivecart.com/surrendercontrol ❤️‍🔥

A few nights ago I dreamt that I entered a kind of portal and once inside it, I felt myself lift up and expand until my sense of form completely melted away. The more deeply I focused, the wider I got and the more absorbed in complete peace - possibly the most profound peace I've ever experienced - I became.  It felt to me to be a kind of astral-level simulator for the experience of returning to source. I don't remember anything before hand, just that I had to complete a few things before I could enter the portal.  And I remember describing it in the dream as "being with the masculine"  I woke up with the same sensation of melting across my body - my womb especially - and it lasted for a time after I got up.  I found some Rose Absolute oil recently that I'd forgotten I had and I've been anointing myself with it before I sleep. The night of the dream was the first night I did it. And every night since my heart and womb have been melting open while I sleep.  I forget how generous she is. 

Entities don’t want you to be seen or supported. The stuff that attaches to your field and siphons off of your energy, does not benefit from you being with people who can see you clearly. Hiding patterns, second guessing the desire for connection, and avoiding being seen can point to energies that feed on contraction and fear. I remember my teacher saying something once about the places where we avoid doing spiritual hygiene - the little thoughts that pop in that have you delay it or put it off. She said: “Who’s benefitting from that thought?” Are those thoughts your own? Siphons thrive in isolation. They hook into that which remains unwitnessed. They stay alive inside of projection bubbles such as: “No-one will understand.” “No-one cares.” “I can do this on my own.” “I don’t need support.” Extractive energies conceal themselves behind the fog of shame, when we avoid being seen because of shame, we provide them with shelter. Leaning into and through the persuasion of a narrative that keeps you from getting in front of people who can SEE - be it trusted friends and family or supervisors, mentors or coaches - can be transformative in exposing things that have been looping for a long time. Connection is LIGHT. Other people’s light illuminating your shadow. What lives in the shadows cannot survive that light. And then your energy gets to be YOURS again.

You have to learn to expand downwards before you can expand upwards in a regenerative way.  Perfectionism and hyper-masculinised conditioning robs people of the descent.  And to that end, it robs people of the feminine juice that feeds genuinely uplifting and sustainable success. 

At the height of bingeing on spiritual self development and trauma work in an attempt to fix my perceived brokenness, I stopped reading fiction.  Don't ever do that. If you're doing it right now, put the Van Der Kolk down. Put it down.  Read a story. 

I used to have these strange, recurring dreams as a really young kid that I now realise were my first experiences of erotic life force flowing through me. I was always being rushed. People needed me to hurry up or they were going to leave and go somewhere without me. The more frantic I got, the more obstacles I was presented with, and the pressure would build. And then at some point I’d just let go of it. I’d let them leave without me. I’d melt open and merge, ecstatically, into my surroundings. As I reflect on those dreams, I am acutely aware of this place where having to contort my naturalness to keep up with a break-neck level of urgency, suffocated my flow at a very young age, and buried it under a deep layer of shame. Shame around my naturalness, around the way I am innately designed to move through the world. And that has also translated to shame around my sexuality. The upwelling of erotic sensation seemed strange and abnormal to me as I grew up. I didn’t know what it was, but the liminal spaces I have so easily hung out in, were awash with it. And this dynamism between urgency and slowness, control and release, was always woven in. Recently I had a dream of being bound up and pulled at a great speed through some kind of portal. The complete lack of control and total surrender to whatever had hold of me was SO erotic. I am buzzing with the feeling of it and my heart is liquefying as I type haha. It was wild. And the less I race through life, the more this energy makes itself known beyond the subconscious soup of my dream world. Kids intuitively know their pace. And it is promptly indoctrinated out of them. Few people make it to adulthood without choking down and getting thoroughly brain washed by rush rush rush Koolaid. It is so deeply baked in to everything. It fires me up when I think about it. When I think about all the places where my nature has been stifled and shrink wrapped by imbalanced masculine programming, passed down from generation to generation. A hyper-masculinity that possesses women and binds up their life force. Making them rigid and draining them of their SEX. I breathe holy fire with my resolve to know that it stops - has stopped - with me. Because the discovery that those original dreams prophesied, is the well of eros that lives beneath all those sediment layers of control. The wild turn on. The RAPTURE of letting go. It’s hot AF. And so beautiful. So innocent and pure. I read really recently that being well fucked has nothing to do with the amount of sex you are having. True. Well fucked is a relationship with life force flowing through your body. It is the ownership of your true pace. The pulsing rhythm that can be heard and then relaxed into, when you choose to step out of time with a culture that runs and runs and runs, faster and faster, to keep up with the relentless, propelling force of survival. It is the depth of the LET GO. The melting and widening oooooze of erotic power unbound by an ancient grip; the intelligence of life finally allowed to seep in. And it is God, animating the human, finally afforded the space to come in.