Jody Baer

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GM Nostr friends, and a happy Thanksgiving to my US friends. Hubby and I are having a Do Nothing day. I mean, I do have a load of laundry in the wash right now, but aside from that, we have planted our butts on the couch and don't intend to move all day. Maybe a nap later. Enjoy the day, whatever it looks like for you. Maybe eat some stuffing and pumpkin pie for me.

GM Nostr friends. We're almost to the Thanksgiving holiday here in the US. I'm absolutely drained and heart sick, but there's still so much to be thankful for. My husband has been an absolute rock for me since we found my dad's body. He has stepped up for me every day when I didn't have the mental fortitude to do anything other than just exist, and has comforted and encouraged me every day since. Every time I think I couldn't possibly love him more, he goes and does something that makes me melt a little bit. The night my dad died, my close circle of friends all just showed up and sat with us at my dad's apartment while the police and EMTs were in and out, and waited until the body had been loaded and taken away. They were comfort while I cried my eyes out, and held me in my shock and grief. My work gave me the time off, and coworkers have reached out to me with sweet words of shared sadness. My sweet Lu has been constantly by my side, and actually licked my tears at times when I couldn't hold it in. She knows something is wrong, and does her best to be my little shadow. And also YOU, Nostr friends! Thank you for reading while I try to process this, and have sent me kind words and love for someone who is a complete stranger to you. I love this community. Happy Thanksgiving.

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Good evening Nostr friends. It's been a very busy couple of days. Hubby and I got home from vacation, worked Thursday and Friday, and then worked from 7:30-2pm today getting the remainder of my dad's apartment moved out and cleaned. We managed to finish this afternoon thankfully. It hurt my heart every time I had to walk in the door and remember the night we found him. All I have to do now is turn in the keys on Monday, and put this chapter behind me.

GM Nostr friends. I woke up about 5 this morning, and couldn't get back to sleep. Our rental house is dark and quiet, so I've been sipping some coffee and browsing online for a while before everyone starts waking up and the morning gets going. Vacation has been good. Had some real belly laughs with Hubby and our friends, got in some decent reading time, and just tried to let go of everything for a little while. While I am eager to get back to regular life, this time away from responsibilities has been good for me. Once we get home late this morning, I'll probably be back at Dad's apartment packing as much as I can into a few hours. Really hoping we can get things wrapped up quickly and turn the apartment keys in. It hurts so much to step into his space and relive finding his body. I can't wait to be done with that building. It will be bad enough having to drive past it all the time. (We live about a quarter mile away.) Anyway, I'm back to work tomorrow, which may or may not be a good thing. I'm already sick of people telling me they're sorry. We just got the church booked for Dad's memorial last night, so I'm trying to shore up my emotional walls for having to endure that in a couple weeks. Have a good Wednesday, everyone.

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GM Nostr friends. I got Dad's obit written up and sent to our coordinator this morning. Used a bit of AI to get me started, but then I ended up rewriting about 80% of it anyway. My inner English major cringed a bit letting anything write for me, but I wasn't in the mindset for it until I had something to start with. Also did a virtual appointment to see about getting some meds, as I have rainbow snot happening this morning. Love being sick on vacation. I've been praying and begging God for some relief from the grief that threatens to drown me the last few days. I keep thinking of things I should text Dad, or particularly beautiful scenery that is photo-worthy he would enjoy, and then I remember he's gone. Hubby and my two friends have been very supportive while we've been here. Looking out at the lake and watching nature are calming. It was a good idea to get away for a few days.

GM Nostr friends. We're officially on vacation, and I couldn't feel any guiltier about it. Around 5 this morning, the CO2/fire alarm went off, waking all four of us. It only went off a couple times before stopping. I tried to get back to sleep, but started coughing so hard I threw up in the bathroom sink. Multiple times.🫣 Hubby found a trash bag and a rubber glove, and managed to unclog it after a few tries. I felt awful having him take care of that for me. He truly is a wonderful husband. Anyway...that's all I got for now. Hopefully the rest of the day is better than the start!

GM Nostr friends. It's only been a few days since my dad passed, but feels like much longer. Thank you to everyone who left a kind note on my last post. I read every one. I'm exhausted. Hubby and I are going over to Dad's apartment in a little while to start sorting and getting rid of stuff. We told the management we would be out by the end of the month, but we are leaving on vacation tomorrow until Wednesday. Going to be cutting it close. I'm planning to donate or toss about 95% of his stuff, minus a few items that have sentimental value for me. Thankfully, he didn't have much and was very clean. Grief has been hitting in very weird ways these last couple days. I started crying while Hubby was on the phone with his own elderly mom last night trying to walk her though using an app to order herself some dinner to be delivered. How many times have I done the same with my dad, irritation building as he wouldn't understand or follow my directions on what should have been a simple process? Never again will I walk him though how to correctly sign into a weekly Zoom meeting with his siblings and make sure he's not muted or accidentally turned his camera off. Those of you with elderly parents, please give them a hug. Life is so precious, and so fleeting. When it's gone, it's like a little bit of light has left your world.

Nostr friends, my heart is broken today. My dad, my sweet Papa, died last night. My husband and I found him. I don't have the words to convey how much this hurts right now. He was one of my very best friends. We shared the same dark sense of humor. I know he is free from all his bodily pain and probably dancing with Jesus and rejoicing at being reunited with my mom.

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GM Nostr friends. Off to another chilly morning here, but I got my coffee. Taking Lu in for a bath and haircut with her favorite groomer over lunch today. I'm excited for her to be able to see again - the fur around her forehead grows out and down, giving her what almost looks like bangs. Hubby is back to work today, but he said he feels like 💩 with 🌽 in it. Pretty great description! I'm choosing to be happy and grateful today. There are things getting me down (and my ever-present anxiety), but God's got this. Enjoy your Wednesday, people. That's an order. 🫡

My workplace has started an initiative to make all public-facing documents and pages accessible. That's all well and great, but unfortunately they did not provide any training to staff, and told us that we had to get our areas tested and any issues submitted either to our local developers or our software provider by a certain date. I just got off a video meeting with my boss and the developer assigned to an issue I submitted, and I fumbled my way through the whole thing. We're fairly busy right now with regular system testing and other projects, and the "on high" leadership who decided to make this a thing have basically provided nothing to help us. I'm so frustrated, as there are deadlines approaching to get this all done, and no one on my team has any idea what we're doing.

GM Nostr friends. It's Tuesday, but also Veterans Day here in the US. If you served, thank you. If you are still on active duty, thank you. If you were the spouse/parent/child of someone who served and had to deal with missing large chunks of time together, thank you. Hubby is still sick today. He tried going to work, then turned around and came home. Said he's feeling better, but his voice is gravely and he's still coughing and stuffed up. His coworkers would murder him if he got them sick, so probably a smart move. I finally threw away our very dead plants from the front patio this past weekend and stacked up our outdoor chairs and table. Not much to winterize here with the 8x8 patio we're given as part of the town house, but it looks a little less chaotic now. No mistaking that winter is here. It's currently 32 out, and somewhat windy. Feels great when you first go outside, but by the time you come back in you realize multiple things went numb. Lu even galloped over to our garage door to go inside early instead of going around to the front door, which was odd because she LOVES the colder weather normally. Have a good day, all.

GM Nostr friends, and happy Monday! Hubby is home sick today. He's currently curled up in bed coughing and watching Youtube videos. It appears that despite getting the shot (same time as me) some weeks ago, he got the flu. Felt worse and worse during the day yesterday and by last night his skin hurt, kept going between hot/cold, head stuffed up, and eventually threw up before bed. My poor guy. Gotta go finish up some testing work for before the morning meetings begin. Have a good day, all.

GM Nostr friends! Chilly day here. Brrr....🥶 I guess winter has arrived? Headed out to church for Bible class first, and then service. Hopefully they have power this week! Hoping for a quiet day today. I might try to do some meal prep this afternoon. Have a good day, all.