I turn 25 today….
It’s a big one for me. First, my mother turned 50 last month. So I am as old as she was when she had me, yet I still feel like a child. There’s no way I could handle having a kid right now. Part of me is thinking “what the hell were you doing mom? You’re 25!”, yet another part thinks “I am so grateful you had me, I owe you everything.”
Second, I inherited part of my grandfathers will today. Except, I wasn’t supposed to. My father was removed from his will because of his marriage with my mother. Mostly because of a difference in faith, but I don’t think I’ve ever been told the whole story. What could my father have done to be written out of this will?
My grandfather, a diehard career Presbyterian decided he didn’t love his son enough to give him his money. My father loved my mother more than the money.
How would god feel about this? What would he do?
So I’m conflicted. I have this money, but it doesn’t feel like it’s mine. It could help my father out a lot, but my personal greed has already started plotting what I could do with it. It could help me live a more comfortable life, but on what moral grounds?
What should I do?