yea i decided the last time i was on a plane that that was it for life for me and then i had to, like couldnt not go, had to go to one more wedding in my lifetime. as in: even my rapist being at that wedding, invited to that wedding, was not enough for me to excuse myself out of that wedding. i owed that wedding to the two people who were getting married. so that is: i already decided + the one exception how many more exceptions do i expect there to be? i dont have friends like that anymore