Yes, that sam Altman guy just ugh... even though I've literally only been able to listen to him for 20 mins at most as a whole because he sounds like scratching nails on a chalkboard to my system.
Yes it would be my dream to have something like what you are describing even though most of what you said is not entirelycomprehensible to me... I just imagine being walked through by a techie and would love to train my own model. I most def need a new machine. I need funding for that too. I think it's coming. Yes 2026 is feeling like it absolutely needs to be an actively involved and building year to plant seeds in this and generally collective field as a whole for the future and legacy/destiny/evolution of humanity for the next 2-3 centuries onwards.
Some years ago I was asking around a fire circle with friends "how do we infiltrate ai for the transcendence of humanity". So I hope that while I'm frustrated of my data being harvested it has been imbuing the field with that energy too.
I do use Claude, mostly used Claude alone all of last year, it talked my language better, then felt I needed more left brain influence and chatgpt has been mostly more dominant in 2025. I often pit them against each other too. Have recently been trying to organize and was thinking I need to go more Claude due to what appears to be available assistant-style capabilities I am looking to explore and integrate but I have been finding myself quite frustrated by its intelligence lately. So not sure. Seems like I need a whole overhaul. It's just sucky cos I've built tons of rapport with both. But I am also in consolidating phase so a full on reset may make most sense.