I’m retarded for wanting to have maximum control over my node? I’m retarded for not wanting to propagate spam across mempools? I’m retarded for speaking out against shitcoiners? I’m retarded for using common sense and thinking for myself?

Well my bad for associating knots with a desire to combat nonexistent child porn. The fact that knots started as a node for power users and ended up being a platform for fearmongering and hardforks is insane.