The unintuitive shift I need to make is to stop trying to liberate myself on my own and instead start building meaningful relationships. Alone, I won’t get far. People aren’t flawless; relationships sometimes hurt. But the alternative is to hurt all the time.
God is flawless, but an honest connection with Him will always lead me to people.
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If I break a leg, I temporarily need aid from others and then I'm dependent on crutches etc. to be able to move. If I don't have a leg, I'm permanently need some kind of support. I'm not going to be able to walk or run like other people. But I still may be able to move efficiently.
There are areas of my life where I'm not self-sufficient. I do things that I don't want to do. And this condition or tendency is permanent. In this regard I don't have a leg. I don't control things, that others are able to control. It's a kind of mental illness. It's not my fault—I didn't choose it, but it's there. Fighting it is pointless, it's always a lost battle. And fighting it actually makes things worse.
So I need help. Which is good. It forces me to go out of isolation and look for someone who can do for me, what I can't do for myself. And there's hope—as others before me went down this path.
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