I figured there is a difference between harsh discipline (your ego makes you take cold showers to proof something) and natural discipline (your being (often softly) demands to give it the full experience of a cold shower and a stream of freshness). Which means learning to listen and to respond in a coherent way that allows for exception while not loosing the track. Most people will have to go through phase one to reach phase two. Just wanted to let you know that things /development move in cycles and at times self-discipline means also means having dedicated space and time for letting go off your harshness and caress yourself in the most loving way. There's likely no short cut other than appreciating the waves. Humans are really ban tinge agile on a deep level. Almost nothing breaks them. So feel free to experiment.