Today I'll meet my abuser, tell the whole group I'm deeply uncomfortable with unprofessional behavior bordering bullying and will get thrown out of the group for these problems are too uncomfortable and I'm not worth the hassle. Wish me luck for staying professional, it'll pay off in the long run. I'd fucking love to bring the storm I'm capable of. But I won't get on his level. I won't I won't I won't I won't.