A few nights ago I dreamt that I entered a kind of portal and once inside it, I felt myself lift up and expand until my sense of form completely melted away. The more deeply I focused, the wider I got and the more absorbed in complete peace - possibly the most profound peace I've ever experienced - I became.  It felt to me to be a kind of astral-level simulator for the experience of returning to source. I don't remember anything before hand, just that I had to complete a few things before I could enter the portal.  And I remember describing it in the dream as "being with the masculine"  I woke up with the same sensation of melting across my body - my womb especially - and it lasted for a time after I got up.  I found some Rose Absolute oil recently that I'd forgotten I had and I've been anointing myself with it before I sleep. The night of the dream was the first night I did it. And every night since my heart and womb have been melting open while I sleep.  I forget how generous she is.