I get ya. I learned that sleep deprivation after getting a ton of stuff done gives the same (or better) relaxed, uninhibited high as being drunk minus the dizziness and liver damage, especially if part of the work is physical I like to stay up and do a bunch of tasks on which I've procrastinated; it's better than drugs & alcohol, although more difficult up front. I get into a flow state from it quickly Plus it doesn't open one up to demonic whispers