In a brief moment of apotheosis, I realized I had defeated the sin of lust. And from the thought processes that followed, listening to a Taya song, I realized that I wanted to love Jesus, but it was weird because he's a man. Like, I feel like I would also want to love women in heaven too, you know? And it wasn't said in a lustful or vindictive way; just honestly. Then I was posed the question: "who said there was no sex in heaven?" And I realize, the verses that I know, that define the guard rails on this topic ... are sparse. Jesus said "they would not get married in heaven" and "they will be like the angels of heaven". But ah.. marriage is just one specific thing. And Jesus did speak in veiled terms about many topics. But those with ears to hear could hear.