My organic grass fed ground beef with spaghetti squash and raw butter is feeling particularly nourishing right now. + I AM sipping on some raw A2/A2 milk. Grateful. 🤗

Someone I hadn't seen in over a year ran into me in the coop saying "it literally made my day running into you". I am just visiting what was my stomping grounds for over 8 years. In reference to my current flow and always shifting whereabouts out of necessity, she asked "But you are happy right?!?" and it really caught me off guard. I sat with it afterwards. I was stumbling... it seems like I feel the expected social norm is to just say "yeah!!!!" put on a big smile and carry on. It's hard for me to lie and I am glad I ran into her. I got to after the fact drop in with myself and speak outloud the reality that's actually present for me. Somehow I was having a hard time answering it a few days ago when I asked "are you happy" on #nostr. It's because I was seeking the answer but wasn't quite able to fabricate a satisfying one. Gratitude seems to always be a remedy in such times... But yeah, doing the best I can with it all. And making some decisions to swing the pendulum authentically the other way, while acknowledging the lows are part of life too. Yet, I am taking the conscious choice to start a new ritual tonight and leave my phone outside of my sleeping quarters for the night + make a giant effort to walk with a lot more mindfulness and presence in my life in the coming days and weeks. More meditation. More breath. More dance and more moving of my hips and pelvis and enlivening that life force Shakti. Fascia and connective tissue exercises. Walks. River. Dates. Quiting coffee yet again. Bone broth and GAPS diet stews. Focus. Slow deliberate diligent progress one step at a time. Declutter. Clear the slate clean. Organize. Mobilize. Breathe. More self care, more self love. More acceptance. More surrender. More relaxing into being in the here and now in this body at this time. #dailydhiyana

GM

Good night.

I am participating in SOUND Bitcoin Walk Summer Challenge! I have reached 12403 steps so far! #SoundHSA #MoveToEarn

Walking is helping.

#railroads

I once was a communications officer at the biggest county assembly in the country in 2020/2021. A vastly diverse group of people with a common purpose of protecting freedom. We grew from a couple dozen to a standing room of ,130+ right about the time I (anxiously!) raised my hand to apply my decade plus experience with email marketing and building online communities. I also was a frequent attendee at the established by two of the other officers weekly "Essential Dance" (in place of what had been ecstatic dance that was paused). The room was always packed with hundreds of sweating dancing unmasked bodies. #resume #presenttime #proofofwalk

I am really depressed today.

Me, myself and I. #21m