I woke up early and went to the gym, then I ate salmon and brussel sprouts and had Ginger Tumeric juice... I guess I'm just trying to really confuse my body by spending a whole day giving it only the best stuff just to trash it this evening.

O look, I found a word for people on Twitter...

Did Christianity get co-opted? I often feel unseasy around Christians or those wearing crosses as my experience with Christianity is that it is a doctrine based on hierarchy, submission, and punishment. It is fueled by comparison, hate, shame, and fear. But then I know Christians who swear to me that their experience is all about love. ...how can that be? Well I recently learned about Gnostic Christianity. This was one of the earlier forms of Christianity and it was much more focused on inner experience and knowledge rather than institutions and punishment. But then, somewhere around 300 ce it shifted. ...it got co-opted. And that makes perfect sense. We can see now that’s how politicians and “leaders” of all varieties function today. They take something that is very popular among “the people” and twist it and turn it to fit their needs. Perhaps the tyrants of the day co-opted what Christianity was, and made it conform to their hierarchy, submission, and punishment based structures?

I don't like Captain Kirk and I specifically don't like him due to how he failed to handle the Kobayashi Maru. The whole point it to test your character, your emotional maturity, to see if you are mature enough to handle the inevitable no-win scenario that life will throw at you. Are you capable of doing the right thing even when you know that the outcome won't go your way? He failed... massively. He should be ashamed of that.

You can love people more when you trust yourself to be able to walk away. People get so scared of “falling in love” or having intense feelings, romantic or not, for anyone. And I get that, you can get your heart stomped on. But being really into someone, romantically or platonically, is really good for you! It makes your day better when you think about them, it fills you with happy hormones, it just makes life more worth living. When you get a bit old, and after you’ve already had your heart stomped on a few times, you can get pretty good at knowing when and how to walk away. And once you trust yourself to be able to walk away, then you can really dive into appreciating someone. Go on and be obsessed. If they become an asshole you can say goodbye. And there is no need to feel bad about it. You gave love because you are a loving person, and they were the ones that lost that.

Sometimes I want to be stupid rich, but not so that I can go to the Met Gala or feel superior to others, but just so I can do ridiculous shit ... like buy myself and 4 friends last min tickets to China so we can try some cafe I saw on TikTok.

In San Juan in the night sky, we have stars. In Chicago in the night sky, we have airplanes lining up to land at O’hare.

If you're an American experiencing apocalyptic dread, I've found the most beautiful soundtrack for your break down. James Blake's Like The End.

I find strict atheists to be just as illogical as the very religious. If you’ve got any honesty, you gotta admit that we just have no #$#@$ idea. Just think about it, we can barely even get ourselves off this rock floating around in the middle of nowhere, we can’t cure cancer, we can’t even stop murdering each-other… and we have the insane idea that we understand the universe? Madness! We have no idea. And sometimes that is even more terrifying than thinking we vanish into nothingness. But it’s the truth. All we got are shots in the dark.

I've pondered and pondered and am now convinced that the single most important thing in this life is your relationships with others. I just think that's the only thing you take with you when you leave this dumpster fire of a planet.

I've probably got a whole journal entry about it.