I was sitting with my newborn son when I heard the confirmation that Charlie Kirk was dead. It's still hard to comprehend. I read how he was a father of two young children who have now been left fatherless. Then a new thought occured to me. What if, in 30 years, my son is doing something world changing like Charlie Kirk was, and someone shoots him?! My precious, amazing, already fantastic, funny, adorable, and strongwilled son. Lord Jesus, bless his kids and wife, but also his parents! Comfort them like only You can, Holy Spirit!

All my posts are baby related, well, except that video posted the other day where I found a snake in our water tank compartment, that was still there hiding this morning. 🙄

I used to work at a very intense reception where I would usually have about 7 different tasks goin at the same time, barely finishing one before getting the next one. I'm used to my mind being really sharp and having access to most things I've heard recently and a lot of long term stuff too. However, since our son was born, and everything my body went through during that time of emergency, I'm realizing that is not currently the case. It's like I can barely keep up with the one task or conversation I am having at a time. The nurses would share some information and I could tell I'd need to use that information at the end of the conversation, and I needed to braise myself to make sure I was going to actually be able to use the new information just shared seconds earlier. Is this part of that "normal" mom's brain changes after giving birth, or is this extra due to having had eclampsia on top of the normal hormonal changes? 🤔 I'm glad I can tell my normal is still under there, so I can actually access it if I really concentrate, but I'm also going to give myself permission to limit myself to one task at a time, instead of my normal 7-10 in I've had going on in the background usually 😅 Being able to look over at my baby is totally worth it. Not needing to go through this alone, but having an absolutely amazing husband to share it with makes it even more enjoyable! If you don't know @LeviJohnson.net know that he is worth knowing, and his books are totally worth reading! 😎

Thank you everyone who has zapped me this month! I only just got my phone back after getting released from the hospital and coming home to find it hidden under my pillow. No wonder my husband hadn't found it the one time he left my/our side. I think I got about 11 zaps of different amounts. Thank you everyone! We have a son! 🥳🥳🥳🥳 And though I'm still in recovery from surgery and waiting for my body to learn how to have a low heartrate so I don't need to take pills, we're all doing pretty well, considering. The doctor thinks I have a high pain tolerance because I didn't want his opioid grade painkillers most moms use the first few days. I think it's more because I have the best husband ever, and don't push myself past my limits, due to a low pain threshold, thus avoiding more pain in general 😎 I'm still a bit lacking in sleep, and haven't really processed everything, so not posts might be a bit strange for a bit. 😅 I did miss Nostr though, and I'm glad to be back!

We got to go home today! 🥳 Our son has now seen his home for the first time. We needed to start by cleaning cause windows had been left open. My amazing husband crawled on the floor, as I can't really do that yet, after having gone through surgery just a few days ago!! Not only do we now have a schedule for feeding our son, but I have a schedule for taking pills. Yep, I've become a pill popper. Hopefully it will clear up quickly and I won't be needing heartrate medication for long, but until then, I'll be popping pills. Hopefully also some orange ones for other people 😏

I've been wining so much lately, but I think it might be spelled more like whining... Our first son has been born! 👶🎉 September 2nd, 6lbs, 6 oz (2903g) 19.314in (49.06cm) at 12:43pm We're all still recovering, but doing okay! We are now a unit of 3! and it's all thanks to God and my amazing husband and our sons's father, @LeviJohnson.net

Someone recently mentioned how mom's change after becoming mom's, and I wasn't sure that would happen to me. However, I didn't just give birth. I got something called ecclamcia, which means I had a seizur, and the day our son was born, I was in and out of consciousness. Maybe some of what I'm currently experiencing has to do with becoming a mom, but honestly, I think most of it has to do with, first 4 days of never getting more than 1-2 hours of sleep in a row due to a full bladder that I thought was just a normal late pregnancy symptom, followed by the seizure that my amazing husband got first hand experience with. He waited like 40 minutes for someone to come but they hadn't made it yet so he took me himself. I only remember flashes of being in the car with him in paved roads, which means I was fully out of it for at least halfway to town too! I kept going in an out. I remember bein inside the hospital with a bunch of doctors and nurses around us. First one doctor said something about inducing labor, which I was on board with but wondered how I'd do since my left leg already seemed hard to move. Then they checked how dialated I was, which I unfortunately was there for, as it was the most excruciating pain I'd ever exerienced! I was 2 cm dialated. Then they went in there again that I again remember , but I'm not sure I knew why at the time. Apparently they broke my water at one point, might have been then. However, awhile later they said the baby's heartrate wasn't good and needed to come out quick. Next thing I knew I was coming out of surgery, no longer pregnany. And when I say, next thing I knew, I mean I literally only have those few memories of what happened before that I already mentioned, the rest are gone. I do remember at some point telling them that I didn't want any eyegoo and then my husband stepped in and added clarity as well as got them to not give him Hepatitis B, cause just no! I have the best husband ever! @LeviJohnson.net So, I was in the hospital getting a bunch of treatments and checkes until this morning, so for 3 days, until they finally decided on some heartrate medication for me to go on, before discharging me. However, since our son lost too much weight during that time, they are still keeping him, so we get to stay too, so the only thing that really changed was that I'm no longer hooked up to anything. I'm still not myself, but I'm pretty sure that has a lot to do with lack of sleep, everything my body has gone through in the last few days, and not just my bodys hormones changing since it's no longer pregnant. The Doctor wanted to prescribe me "Hydocodin tylanol" for the pain, but I haven't been moving around a lot, though I started taking walks today cause they don't know why my heartrate keeps jumping around. But I mostly experience burning stining excruciating pain if I walk too long, but after sitting for a minute it goes away, so I'm not sure why I'd need such strong medication, so I didn't even fill it! The Doctor talked about me having a high pain threshhold, but that's not true. It's really low, I'm just maybe more conciencous than most and if the pain goes away within seconds of stopping a painful activity, why would I take a pill for it, when I could just stop doing the thing? Anyways, we're not sure where my phone is but at least I have my laptop now. I was missing Nostr! I'm back, loopier, and with the responsibility for a human life. An adorable, tiny, healthy, human life!

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Just had a sip of apple juice and got a flash back to when I would travel back and forth to the US some years ago. I'd always get a cup of water AND a cup of apple juice. Then that company stopped flying to America, I got married and we used a different one, one that had been around for ages and was the same company I used for my very first visit with my parents when I was 10. They only gave out one cup of liquid! The difference between when I was 10 and 31 was extreme! We got blankets, pillows, face masks, earbuds, and I'm pretty sure multiple drinks when I was 10. This time they barely let us know they even had earbuds, tried to dehydrate us, oh, well, and they had those mask mandates the first flight we took with them. I'm glad those were done by the time we flew back to the US. Anyways, those were the things that plopped into my mind at a sip of apple juice 🤣

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Just realized that 3 sundays from today, there might be a baby in my arms instead of my belly 😳🤯🤗👶

So, babies can be potty trained at birth, right!? 🤔 I looked up diaper prices and how many they need per day, and I'm pretty sure our son will be a savant when it comes to potty training and just tell me whenever he needs to go potty so I can hold him over a toilet or something 😅😇😎👶 Diapers are another fiat lie, right? RIGHT!?!?! 😬🤣

I made a comment last night about feeling sad about the changes the seemingly updated Amethyst interface caused, and today my app just keeps crashing. Eh, is it mad at me??? 😳