Gm, I’ve said this before but I’ll say it again. For me, It’s never been a lack of trust, it’s a lack of patience when surrendering to God’s plan and timing. Heard a story this weekend of this non-verbal autistic boy that evoked immediate tears and full body chills. He spent 20 years not being able to communicate. His family finally took him to learn how to communicate using speller boards at age 20. The first thing he chose to communicate to everyone was “God is strong in this room. There is no stopping His Love”. Eventually he communicated to his family that he had a dream where Jesus came to him and told him to be patient, his relief to his pain of not being able to communicate was coming, and it would come in the form of a board. His family asked him when he had that dream assuming it was recent- he told them he had it at age 5. 15 years of patience and faith and surrender. 15 years of waiting for relief, reward. 15 years of his mind trapped in his body knowing exactly what’s going on while being treated as retarded in schools. And the first thing he writes is there is no stopping His love. Often we want to see our work, our dreams, our visions exist in the world sooner than they are meant to. Often we want our discomfort, our uncertainty, and our pain immediately resolved. It is a reminder of the strength it takes to have low time preference, long term vision, and trust in the grander plan. THERE IS NO STOPPING HIS LOVE. Have a good day🩷

Uncertainty, where every direction is possible, but none feel right. Yet.

When something says “newly built” I’m like oh so it sucks

You’re not clauding bikini tech packs??

Did they turn on 6G with the eclipse this week or somethin, my nervous system been in the astral

If a farmer gives me something for free I literally want to cry because I know how hard their jobs are especially when they are doing it the right way. My oystermonger gave me a few extra oysters for free and my raw milk lady gave me a free tub of raw butter 😭😭😭😭 it’s the little things

Big self care day. Get the lineup: Insisted on cutting my own hair (I’m not good at this) Scalp massage with rosemary hair oil (could do this for hours) Foam roll and fascia ball Bentonite clay mask Magnesium bath (+ ripping palo santo) Raw honey face mask Now should we finish with a steak??? Or ice cream ??? Or both???

I just want to sit within the trees and listen to water moving by my body, to stare at the sky and watch the shapes and the colors slowly morph with the passing of time and the walk of the sun. To feel held by the earth. To feel presence with the earth. To think about how cool it is that I’m in this body and that God made me like he made all of these other beautiful things. To leave urgency and anxiety and the need to prove my worth behind because everything I’ve ever needed was given to me the moment I was born. It is all right here, yet I pick up a small black rectangle every few minutes and absorb myself into an entirely different reality. An inversion convincing me to feel fear, lack, scarcity, survival. To spend my finite miracle of time chasing things that don’t matter. Remembering what truth feels like in my body and where I go to find it allows me to not get lost in my own dissonance.

Meta took down one of my posts bc my hemp-organic cotton swimwear is PROMOTING CANNABIS. Lol they want u infertile.

High of the day: seared then slow cooked beef shank in tomato bone broth with basil onion and garlic Low of the day: heart rate 600 for hours preparing to publically speak Bone marrow is my cortisol suppressant. Stay tuned for my scientific study.

Every passing day I aspire to be more of a lawless nobody. “Crypto absconds from these great negative forms of power by blinding power from the start. Power cannot be created in the Cyphernet through violence or subjection, but only through consensual agreement with the Other. By removing one's physical body from the economic space first by blinding in the Cyphernet, the possibility of violence is banished. By removing one's identity from the agreement, none of the current relations of legal power can find their footing, nor the violence that would ultimately enforce such legal power can exist. Statism is the codification of law through authority which finds its legitimacy in violence. The Cyphernet is the codification of law based upon mutual agreement about Truth verified through crypto, rather than authority based upon law. “ (Cryptosovereignty, Erik Cason)

I’m very sensitive and receptive to energy of other people and energy of environments. Some people take offense if you desire solitude over their presence. They want to make it about them- not liking them enough, but really it’s just knowing what I need to be my best self. I must have ample time and space to go where I can hear myself, sense my own intuition, and feel my connection to God. Sometimes what makes me feel happiest is my own thinking and dreaming. Some of us just have a strong inner world, it’s not bad or wrong. It’s a different role in the world and a different mechanism for how we must spend time in order to then express our gifts outwardly.

Boundaries. Literally just boundaries. Too many people drain and siphon your energy, your spirit. You’re not rude for having boundaries. You can love someone and still not let them have as much access to you. Maintaining a state of high energy, purpose, intention, joy, optimism, and action is a duty to God, if someone pulls me from that space that I work hard to create, I send you love but not my time.

Being a woman wanting a natural life in the modern world is hard. Being a woman wanting a natural life and opting out of the systems is hard af. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by choosing the paths of most resistance. It can feel like so much to constantly carry even if it’s what I believe is right and true in my heart. Here is a beautiful place to be reminded of people choosing truth when it’s not easy, but it’s also a place of few women. Because these paths and choices are very masculine. It is hard, it is war, it is a fight, it is heavy, it is uncertain, it is isolating. Women don’t want to constantly carry that. Our bodies aren’t made to sustain it all. These thoughts resurge predominantly when I spend time around people choosing the standard paths of comfort and convenience, and it mirrors back to me how differently I’m trying to operate and how much harder I’ve made my life. I’m definitely a little tired. But I promise I won’t stop.

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what kind of woman do you want to be? “both a sanctuary and a threat, depending on the audience.”

If I ask you how you are/how’s life when catching up and you answer “ah nothing new same old same old” I’m out. I prefer chaos. Please make life interesting. I beg you. Generate a story worth telling.

Nothing is lost when perspective is earned

July was like where are you performing and you’re gonna stop or we will make you stop.

Also who decided all hiking shoes needed to be so ugly ???