I love this song and lyrics so much, when I was in my first suicidal crisis, I have listened to it in a loop while crying. Now, two years later, I'm very better and it just rocks! (Still fucked up psyche, but not self-destructive anymore)
Translated from German.
(Intro)
I dance and I dance, only to realize too late that this will be my last
dance in life.
My dance with death.
But no one will miss me, nobody will ever know my story,
Because I am nothing.
**(Song Begins)**
Every second person on this earth says they can’t cope, that they are a
deeply messed-up psychopath and unsalvageable—right, because clearly
nobody was there for me in my life.
I damn humanity and fuck good Karma.
A life is too expensive to just ignore, but a life is worth nothing when
you never lose everything, when routine sets in and nothing happens, yet
it still escalates, and the content of your life is built on lies.
For 27 years I've been trying to recognize the truth, but I have no choice
but to suppress the lies, or else hang myself—that’s the way out of this
misery, because death is the only key to life!
My schizophrenia promotes the fantasy of self-annihilation; my
autoaggressions are clustered like ever, and like magic, they prove my
theory of self-destruction.
There is no chance for me to escape its power.
I just want to run away, to get out of this system. There is no option but
to take my life, finally commit suicide.
I can't resist anymore, so I die alone and leave this life, because I’d
rather die alone and abandoned by everyone than give even a spark of hope
to this life, because if I continue investing in this fucked-up life, I am
losing not just time but also strength.
Every day on this world is pure time that I'm wasting, so I swallow the
pills and put an end to it.
I curse this life; I leave this place, now or never,
FINAL DESTINATION: SUICIDE!
I can't go to hell, because I am already there, so I won't take my life
later, but right now.
I immerse myself in a trance, a state of ecstasy; the thou