I am alive, though I've isolated myself from social media for 3 months. This sounds good for two weeks, but in longer run this feels depressing. During this time I was experimenting with GP, building my own system with algorithms for crafting daily schedules and cooking. This was influenced by my dream of August and September of 2025, in which Phicho managed to enhance and civilize the Wild East through his adventure trip and building a project with simulations. I left this "breakthrough" as experiments, because GP is either computationally expensive, or requires very specific heuristics to begin with, while I lack viable use cases for this software. Though I've loved to discover different types of cx, mx and evolutionary dynamics. Then I was busy with relocation, and I went sick and took self-review of coping mechanisms of Spiral Dynamics, chronic depression and pseudocyclothymic patterns. Now I've took long rest, just doing art writing and coding for some of its written patterns. Life feels like dark and cold void from which I must craft my own destiny, because everything I believed as guaranteed paradigms of sustainably healthy, safe and individually free living, do not work in current era. I just do what feels right.