I've lived a life full of that and it hasn't been reciprocated by assholes like you. You don't know how to love. You don't comprehend the Golden Rule or understand how to apply it. I was like you when that ultimate goal happened. I dismissed it as having potentially been an enlightenment experience because it didn't match Buddha's or Eckhart Tolle's or Sadhguru's or Rupert Spira's or Adyashanti's narratives. Turns out, humans have pigeon holed that type of experience as being "the enlightenment experience" rather than "AN enlightenment experience". The various traditions I've studied, including the Rosicrucian tradition to which you are so attached, are ALL distorted, so it should not be a surprise that "the enlightenment experience" as commonly "understood" is in fact only a partial understanding. I'm hostile to assholes who choose to use me to get ego cookies for themselves because your ego cookie you seek comes at the cost of my pursuit of ending religious violence in the world. Your pedantic, myopic tendency to argue with me and speak past me is only an obstacle to one of the most noble goals a person can have. I would think that such a goal would at least earn me freedom from being targeted by people like you as a source of ego cookies. You don't understand the traditions I've studied, nor are you aware of the connections I've found between them and modern science. You are very ignorant and in many ways willfully so which directly opposes the eye of the needle parable and the empty cup Zen koan. You're full of your own speculations and opinions. You won't reach the ultimate goal because you can't...not as long as this is your mindset. Fuck off and let me cook. I'm trying to end religious violence globally and all you're doing is using me for ego cookies. You are petty, self-serving, presumptuous, egotistical, and what's worse is that you project all of your shit onto me. You've repeatedly demonstrated that you think you have me in a box when you do not. You've repeatedly demonstrated that you think you're in my head when you are not. Stop it. Fuck off and let me cook.