I just had a relapse. I paid a back alley dealer $100 for an argument.
My therapist always told me I was addicted to debating people, but I never used to believe her. Then one day I got into an argument with a gay person. I told him that even if a guy is sexually attracted to men, he should still voluntarily marry and have kids with a woman.
He told me that I was only arguing that because as a straight man, I didn't know how awful it was like to perform sex acts with someone of a sex I wasn't attracted to. He said that I didn't have the conviction. It was in the middle of sucking his dick just to win the argument that I finally realized that I had a problem.