Someone needs to go first. We need leaders or everyone would just sit around waiting for something to happen. Someone has to lead the hunt or nobody eats. You don't need permission though. You can just do stuff. That's a leader. Whether people follow you or not is beside the point. A leader walks their own path at least some of the time. It's tiring to lead, it's much easier for those coming behind on a forged path. We need to take the lead sometimes to give others a bit of a rest. You don't have to follow but you can choose to. I think you've got a limiting definition of power. That it was part of your conditioning & that it's probably not accidental. I think that because I used to have a limiting definition of power. I think you refuse to be controlled & don't want to control others. You're a part of the group Paul Rosenburg called the Gammas. I know a lot of Bitcoiners who are also Gammas. Gammas are the people I would prefer were powerful. The reluctant leaders. They knew how to shape their world to their preferences. Power isn't bestowed, it's your divine right, you just have to know it & take responsibilty for it. Bitcoin bestows power onto individuals. Power is not control. I would prefer that people were empowered, that they realised their divine right. I see the act of disempowering someone as Evil.