For me, I had and have to continue cleaning my own house. Find that forgiveness, gratitude, joy, and love are catalysts. Some can teach without what we understand as ego. I lean more from those who do rather than tell. It is possible to be your own guru and not have to pay insta influencers to teach you enlightenment to line their pockets. Meditation, nature, creative expression, etc help immensely. There are ancient tools freely available for those willing to look.