I hate the fact that my family is all super trusting of big pharma. Everyone else is on psychiatric meds and I'm the only one who has realized the reason I'm stuck on these meds is because of the horrible #ssriwithdrawal they cause. That the withdrawal is not relapse. I gained a lot of weight after I had to go back on to stabilize from the withdrawal. These drugs destroy my metabolism. I get looks ...like you know they are seeing the weight gain. I hate the way it feels, I know these meds are doing damage. And I want to just scream "it's the fucking medication and yes, I'm going to try and get off the meds again." I want to explain that this time I have the knowledge on how to do it in a way that should reduce the risk of withdrawal. But I am told I shouldn't come off the meds, that I need them. So I just don't talk about it with my family anymore. But it really does make me want to scream.
#ventsession
