I am beginning to appreciate the bitterness because now I am able to taste something sweet. This achieved is through an unsatiable hunger and a flame that burns eternally. Low and slow. For a long time I thought I had a lot to learn from my father here in the world that I somehow lost out on when the cancer treatment made his life unlivable. As I continue to solve problems with authority I have no right to have or confidence in solutions and systems or flavors that are clearly correct and solid but missing from regular life, I realize that I have been learning and living and walking with my father in heaven for years. Calling us to simply do what comes naturally. When I have no more words that work I end up landing on my knees and looking for the big guns (words from the book) that is how I intend to save my bacon. ❤️