When Digit was on the wallstreetbets chat, she found Aubrey Plaza really relatable and often posted reaction gifs of her as a representation of herself. I'm scared she's committed suicide over the loss of a man she loved, who rumors say also died by suicide. I just found out Aubrey Plaza's husband died by suicide the other day. I can't tell if God is testing my ability to disregard this because Aubrey Plaza isn't Digit so it doesn't matter, or testing if I have enough of a heart to stop trying to cause suicides while someone Digit cared about and related with is grieving one, or there is no god and this is just yet another coincidence. I do know that if Digit can't handle living, I wish she would kill me before herself so I wouldn't have to be in a world where she died, and if both Digit and Aubrey Plaza can't handle living, I wish one of them would kill me before themselves so I wouldn't have to be in a world where they both died the same way and all I could ever do was make it worse for everyone.