omg. that sounds so scary. sorry you had to deal with all that... but i'm glad you got out safely. there is a deep insecurity within a lot of guys. and a deep fear of vulnerability. i could go into a long spiel, but you said it best here: "Perhaps he thought by not crying he was not showing emotions.... But he was." the ego is a mask. and an unconscious mind will do whatever it takes to protect it... again, thank you so much for sharing this part of your story <3