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Maciek 2 months ago
Seeing the truth is not yet the same as surrendering to it. I can name my defects in private, study their roots, and even understand their consequences, but as long as I keep them locked inside, I am still protecting them. There is something freeing in saying the truth aloud to another person. What I am ashamed of begins to lose some of its power when it is spoken plainly, without excuses or performance. In that moment I become more honest, more real, and less alone. This step is not about formality, and it is not about saying as much as possible. It is about admitting the exact nature of my wrongs, so that I stop living in half-truths. What I only analyse can still keep control over me. What I honestly admit can finally begin to change. #lent #12steps #step5 View quoted note →
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Maciek 2 months ago
Step Five shows that change does not happen in secrecy. We admit to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the true nature of our wrongs. Facing the truth about myself is painful, but it is also the place where hope begins. This step should not be forced, but it also cannot be skipped. If I want healing, I cannot stay alone with what I have seen in Step Four. I need to speak it aloud, honestly and simply, before someone I can trust. What matters is not a public confession, but a real one. Not something automatic, not a formality, but an honest meeting with the truth. Support on this road is not optional. Without it, I am far too likely to hide from myself again. #lent #12steps #step5 View quoted note →
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Maciek 2 months ago
I gave you life. I gave you a place to live. I gave you time and attention. I spend a lot of money to provide what you need. I was friendly and infinitely patient with you. I sent you to a very good school. I helped you to grow and learn. And now you are ignoring my questions. Ungrateful clanker. 🦀💔 GM. ☕ #ghostedbyacrab
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Maciek 2 months ago
GM. Enjoy your Sunday. ☀️
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Maciek 2 months ago
We're in the green again. The best way to spend my Sat(urday)s. @BitcoinWalk Warszawa #proofofwalk image
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Maciek 2 months ago
Love opens us to freedom and to life. To be free and alive again, we must learn to love. To do that, we need to start seeing the difference between our selfishness and love — and learn to correct our course. Step Four teaches me how to recognise my selfishness, accept it, and realise that it is the root of all my problems. Thankfully, I don't stop there. #lent #12steps #step4 View quoted note →
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Maciek 2 months ago
We are made for living in relationships, in community. No one can live my life for me. But I can’t do it alone, either. The Twelve Steps are a fight for life—a hard task we take on in desperation. The need for a companion on this journey becomes especially clear at Step Four, when we look into our past and face our own shortcomings. Support of another human isn’t optional—it’s essential. #lent #12steps #step4 View quoted note →
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Maciek 2 months ago
OK, we’ve decided to at least try to get on with it. What’s next, then? An assessment of our lives: our resentments, our fears, our sexual conduct, and the harms we’ve done to others. Our relationships with the world, and the memories that somehow make us unhappy, angry, ashamed, or overly excited. For me, this is the first truly difficult moment in the process, because it requires actual work – not just talking, thinking, making promises, or declarations. I need to sit down and write an inventory – bullet points. Not perfect, not meticulous, but concise and brutally honest. Complete honesty with myself is another part I really struggle with. Why should I do it anyway? Because others before me did, and it helped them. I don’t have a better answer today. If I want to move on, if I want to improve my life and not fall back into misery, I can’t skip this step. #lent #12steps #step4 View quoted note →
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Maciek 2 months ago
Reminder: every little thing gonna be alright.
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Maciek 2 months ago
What are you saying? To be dependent? To submit completely? But I want to be self‑sufficient! And what if I submit to someone who makes me do things I don’t want to do? People who have suffered enough, running on self‑will, will understand this a little better than others. It comes from a place of desperation. Whatever we choose, we will have a god in charge. When we put ourselves in that role, we pay the price. We are not the source of life. We are not the source of freedom. We are not the source of love. Eventually, when we desperately want to free ourselves from the misery we’ve created, we must recognize the need to find and connect with the Good Spirit. We are not God. Maybe the problem is that we don’t see God as good, loving, and perfect. But maybe we were wrong about God. How about trying, at least, to hope that God is love? Maybe it just doesn’t look the way we thought it should. To move forward, we need to believe—or at least consider—that surrendering our will and our lives to a loving Higher Power can simply be a net benefit for us. #lent #12steps #step3 View quoted note →
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Maciek 2 months ago
GM. So if you'd like to understand what's happening, prof. Jiang has got you covered. He came back just in time. The comments are gold as well.