Same same with my father. 🫂 Seriously have a convo with someone. Seriously.

That’s beautiful Gigi. I’m so sorry that you & your family had to suffer the devastating loss of your father to suicide. I cannot begin to imagine what you have all gone through, but reading your words makes me fully realise how fortunate & blessed I am for coming out of the other side of depression & thoughts of suicide. Yes it was over finances too. Somehow I managed to find the strength or I should say God gave me the strength to face my worst fear which was Bankruptcy. I came to realise that the thought of losing everything & feeling like I’d let my family down was much worse than the actual experience itself. After the event I was able to see the many blessings that came from that experience. Spiritual growth I found comes through somehow finding the courage to face our worst fears. I could never have foreseen the blessings that would emerge from the ashes of my business collapsing, personal humiliation & bankruptcy. My ego was shattered into a million pieces & it turned out that was the greatest gift I could ever have wished for. Had my ego got the better of me I would not be here to tell the story, yet somehow by the grace of God I was blessed & saved. In truth it could have gone either way. Why some of us see the light & others do not I have no answers. But I do know that through the power of prayer anything is possible. So the best advice I could give anyone on the brink of despair is to pray. 🙏 Be honest about how you are feeling & ask God to lift the burden from around your shoulders. Then just see what happens. You’ve literally got nothing to lose but potentially a whole new life to gain. My thoughts & prayers are with all of those who have been affected by these events. 🙏😔❤️🕊️

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I’m so sorry you went through that. Thank you for sharing something so deeply personal. I can’t imagine the weight of that loss, but I’m sending you a big hug and hoping you have people around you who love and support you. And personally, just like I said this morning, I love you.🧡🫂

Lost a brother in law to suicide. He was an engineer. Graduated from Vanderbilt. Make a 35 on ACT. We were close. Bought my first house from him way under what it was worth. Never saw it coming and miss him to this day.

You are such a brave person. Your wife is lucky to have you. As are your children. In the Bitcoin world, you have helped many. But, as you say in your essay, in the end it’s only love that counts. And love happens IRL, not over relays You sure have a great mind, too, as your father probably did. How you see that meaning and suffering are intertwined, and yet say that without having faith, tells me you must be very close to Him, as you are grasping the Truth. There’s no love without suffering. I wish for you that at some point you realize that He was, is, and will be beside you. Even inside you, if you let Him. It’s such an enrichment for one’s life. Mind alone can be cold and cruel, even more so a good one, as yours. It’s like suddenly living life in 3D, after having lived your whole life in 2D. Please continue what you do. Love.

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I am sorry to hear that, @Gigi!

Same with my grandfather.

Horrible. I’m so sorry. 💔 Losing a parent itself is devastating; this is so much to bear. This is beautifully written, and may it reach whom it needs to. You honor him well, and it’s good to talk about this. Thank you yourself for still being here. Seriously. 🫂 While being all too familiar with the monster/master (and existential dread), I still agree how incredibly important it is to keep living anyway. Much love 💜