Spent last night in a friend’s hospital room. You do a lot of thinking in a room like that… Everybody you’ve ever loved is going to die, and so are you, and you’ve built your whole life around not thinking about it. You almost have to. You couldn’t merge onto the highway or kiss someone goodbye in the morning if you were holding the odds in your head while you did it. So we tell ourselves everyone is solid, that the people you’ll see tonight will be there tonight, and you forget you ever made it up. I’ve spent a lot of my life standing where that story comes apart. You don’t walk away the same man. It files the edges off everything you thought mattered, until you can’t remember why you spent last night angry. A man drives a road he’s driven a thousand times. The thousandth time feels like the first nine hundred and ninety nine right up until it doesn’t, and the gap between an ordinary evening and the end of everything is a few feet and a couple of seconds. That’s what we’ve been living on without once looking at it. That it held again today, that you woke up at all, that the people you love are still a phone call away, is more than you’re owed. You didn’t earn the breath you took this morning. You can’t put it in savings. Nobody tells you how many are left before they hand you the last one. If you’ve lived long enough you already know this. You’ve gotten the call that pulls the air out of the room. No long life skips that door. I won’t tell you to live like today’s your last. That saying has lost its weight. But you are in someone’s hands right now, whether you’ve made peace with it or not, and what you decide about whose hands those are is the difference between spending your borrowed time in quiet terror or in something that finally feels like rest. The breath was given. Sit with that before you scroll.

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Now this is very important I've been in coma before not a long one but it still counts... he can hear you all... if its in that state which I hope he is not... life is so fragile... those who went through that stage know what im talking about. Be positive and just talk to him... i hope he is going to be okay... i send all my angels to guard his light and pull him back... life is only one ... that is the truth some people dont cherish enough and go into conflicts and always harbour anger in their hearts... for me those kind dont make sense and unfortunately till they dont come to the edge they never realise... be strong for your friend ... 🩷💯🫶✨️🩷
Here's (a related) something else to think about...🤔 I am presently in my mid-70s. When I was a kid, I discovered Science Fiction. It promised me flying cars and glorious freedom in a wonderful future. The state, aka the fiefdoms of satan, have robbed us all of that and, continue to do so... Jesus came crying out that the Kingdom of God was bursting in, but we stubbornly put our heads in the sand and refuse to enter it...🤔 We have the technology for autonomous cars, for flying cars, but the state continues to put that on the back burner. They want us dead, whether it's in a car crash, or by a lethal injection of supposedly life-saving drugs.😠😡🤬 It's time we all moved into the Kingdom of Heaven that Jesus announced thousands of years ago.
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nix 2 days ago
Very few people if any will argue about the truth of this. Even fewer will be able to do something meaningful about it. Where do you start? What do you change? How? The vast majority of people are stunningly averse to self-knowledge. Getting it is hard work and scary, usually takes a lot of pain to prod one on that path. Pain like the one you seem to be facing right now. Hope your friend will be ok.
I compartmentalize well. Whether it’s good or bad, it’s the way Ive been hardwired regardless. I think these moments just bring you back to reality. That our “problems” are minuscule compared to what some when death comes near. My worldview as a Christian helps to see clearly how fallen this world is and that there’s life beyond this side. Thank you!
My people say I’m wasting my future by living in the past, I say you’re wasting your past because you’re living for a future that’s not guaranteed. All you have in this life are your memories, take that away and you’re a hollow shell. This is why it’s so tragic when you meet someone with Alzheimer’s, because all of their lives they spent building up memories to cherish, only to lose them towards the end, I cannot think of a fate worse than that..